Wednesday, February 28, 2007
i think my body clock is going haywire again. i've been feeling really tired for the past 2 days. i think my energy is totally drained by that one night where i have to work my butt off for my HR essay. gosh! that was a nightmare!
nothing interesting happened lately apart from the phonecall that i received yesterday. anyway, i think most people, except for sok and maria, wont even know who are these people that i'm talking about.
during work yesterday, i received a phonecall from xunwei aka benben, but because i was working, so i didnt pick up. he called again when i was on my way phone.
he asked if i'm free on this saturday, and that liang kai has invited me over to his place. ok, and by now, everyone might be just wondering who exactly is liang kai right? ok, liang kai is gavin's, xunwei's and ky's ACS friend. i only know him because of gav and ky because i used to stayover at gav's place together with them. and i was always the only girl around, so after a while, they kind of gotten used to it and i sort of know them as well. there are also ding jie and collin. anyway, all my xiaoguas know him and he sorts of hangs out with the 4th SC. in short, we are not exactly THAT close. so can you imagine the shock that i felt when i first heard about this?
i thought that it was xunwei's idea and kept insisting that he was playing some trick on me or something, but because liang kai was just beside him, so he explained himself over the phone and extended the invitation to me personally. gosh. seriously, i dont know what i'm in for, but being the dump and stupid me, i actually agreed to go. sighz.
now that i think about it, i seriously have no idea why did i agree... sighz. anyway, i would rather go for it then by seen as trying to avoid SOMETHING. anyway, no matter how awkward the situation might be, i'll still find a way to improve things lahz. hopefully, they'll just play mahjong, then maybe i'll happily plop myself at the seat and dont have to socialise. sighz.
oh well, i'll see what's going to happen this saturday manz..... haizz... shall keep you guys updated =(
anyway, i'm going to my cousin's place to look at my twin nieces this saturday!! yey!! cool!!! just cant wait for that!!! =)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
sighz. i'm so dead.
anyway, i should be on my way to work, but i decided to just slack a bit first.
my essay is still not done!!!
i'm so dead.
i cant seem to focus on what i'm doing. i'm frikking stuck at the stupid 'components' part. damn. i'm sooooo tired. and i'm in a super lousy mood.
i feel like throwing all the damned books away. i feel like just not handing in my stupid essay. oh manz.. why do i have more patience for other unimportant things as compared to this?
i was reading someone else's blog and i realised that he has grown up. having been through too many rough patches, he has finally realised that things are always not what it seems to be? and everyone of us has got a different goal and is walking a different path. it might or might not lead us to where we want, but still, we are walking towards some unknown destination ahead of us. sometimes, it's this unknown that made us realised more about this world and the people around us.
we all like or choose to give people the benefit of the doubt. but sometimes, i'll question myself, is it really worth to go through the misery again just to give someone the benefit of the doubt and end up disappointed? maybe if the person is important to you, you'll bother to go through the trouble?
actually, i also dont know if she's worth it. as i said, i had plans to get something for her birthday. i was still racking my brain a week ago trying to think of something to get for her. and i was thinking maybe i should ask LK for some suggestions. but now, i think i should just save the trouble and the money.
i hate it when i get nonsense that irritates me after a few days of absence. i mean, come on', get a life!, does it always have to be this way? does it mean that i shouldnt be absent at all to ensure that there'll be 'peace' between us?
sometimes, i look at her and wonder am i the one that needs to grow up or is she the one?
and everytime she pulls off some stunt, LK would be affected, and that i would be just as affected or even more affected after she told me about it, and i kept thinking and thinking. i really want to close this chapter of my life. cos it's taking up too much time thinking and wondering what else is next. and seriously, i dont need this at all.
JW said that maybe it's her inferior complex, and that's why all these are happening. but to me, what farking, blardy inferior complex? are you telling me that a sudden change in attitude is caused by some stupid inferior complex? and i mean a sudden change in attitude!
i look at you and wonder what you are thinking.
i wanted to ask, but couldnt bring myself to take that first move.
i've tried, we've tried,
but to you, maybe we were just being 'plastics'.
sighz.
you know what, i just shouldnt be bothered about you.
My Horoscope for Today
Exploring your world and your feelings is very much favored, but when it comes to drawing any big conclusions or making any definitive judgments, hold off. It's about the process now.
You're feeling most impetuous. Go with it. There's nothing like some spontaneity to reinvigorate your spirits. So drop everything and go to Aruba, or heck, eat lunch at a different hour. You'll have an amazing time.
You should know by now that communicating your feelings to others isn't just about reciting a monologue. It is a two-way street -- a way of starting a conversation that could lead to very rewarding places. So keep this in mind if there's something that has been troubling you lately. Do not hesitate to ask someone to let you get something off your chest. By doing so, you'll be allowing this person to share some of his or her own troubles that need to be shared.
*****
it seems to be talking about this particular issue, but still, i really dont feel like having a confrontation of any sorts.
on the other hand, isnt it better to be ignorant sometimes?
i was thinking about some other thing half the night and wondering why am i bothered by it? this is so weird. i mean, are there any reasons that i should be bothered about what happened? or are you trying to tell me now that i've been living in self-denial all along.
sighz. i really shouldnt be thinking about all these, should i? i mean, i've got a lot of other things that i should be doing, like my HR essay for example? i'm so dead lahz! i'm still at the first part of the essay. sighz. i'm not particularly fond of this manz.
Friday, February 23, 2007
i think this is the 5th day of CNY? i can barely believe how fast time flies.... oh well, the hype is almost over, and my aunt is going back to beijing on sunday. think ming is flying back tomorrow, and min and linda will be going back on saturday.
GH is coming back in a few months' time and xuan will be back too! =)
i guess this CNY made me realised quite a few things.
anyway, nothing much really happened yesterday. nothing that seriously makes me happy or interest me except for the family dinner at Ah Yi Seafood Restaurant. i havent been dilligently taking photos for this CNY because the cam is not with me, and also because i dont really have THAT mood.
yesterday, somehow or rather, i finally understood how 'he' felt. all that remarks and sarcasms. it's a wonder how he's able to tolerate all of that. i guess he can, but i cant. i refused to be 'plastic'. i guess i've felt that animosity for quite some time, just that i chose to think that maybe it's just me being oversensitive. i know that i'm not, but i chose to give the benefit of the doubt. but i do realise that i sort of gave up more and more easily? and i dont like to give chances anymore, because it gets even more depressing when the person fails you.
i guess now my brain has to work a bit lesser. because it doesnt have to remember things about "it" anymore.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
*yawnz* it's already 230 in the morning and i just came back from a late night movie with my family =) we went to watch "Follow the Law". this movie is hilarious!! i had a darn good laugh out of it! =)
anyway, i want to keep this post short, cos it's going to be another long day tomorrow. was busy for the past 3 days, having reunion dinner and going for visiting =) have i ever mention that my family simply love Chinese New Year? it's just another excuse for everyone to get together, poke fun at each, and simply enjoy each other's company and bask in the love of all =) this year's visiting wasnt as 'fierce' as the previous years. maybe it's because my uncle didnt really tell me the programme beforehand and so i was invited to liyen's house today to play mahjong, something that i tried darn hard to resist. was supposed to play mahjong at my place again at night, but i had to cancel at the last minute cos my uncle had planned for a movie date for the family =) totally cool!!!
anyway, plans for tomorrow will be to go to my 二姑's place. yeppiez! didnt really take much photos this year cos... 1. i dont have the cam with me. 2. we were simply too busy talking to do any other things =)
anyway, too bad that zk is not back this time round. sort of miss such a 'charismatic' presence =) hahahhaa... sometimes, i really think that it's got to do with the age. somehow or rather, the guys around my age just dont seem to be as gentlemanly as those that are at least 2 or 3 years older then us. how weird.
and you know what, knowing people like the SIM guys and having cousins that are really gentlemenly and uncles who are super charismatic, it just tells me that the criterias that i'm looking for do exist, and i shouldnt ask for anything less then them.
oh well......
Happy Chinese New Year people!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
a short post so that i can go and sleep.
yesterday and today (and i mean 9th and 10th Feb) had been great.
went out with my 3 babes yesterday,
namely linda, sok and min for suki sushi buffet and after that shop around for facial products *grinz*
i spent quite a bit of money, again.
sort of had a supper club reunion dinner at night near CHC after work.
havent had such things for a long time.
even though there were quite a few people missing,
but still, i enjoyed the company.
talking to long on the way home was as usual, fun,
even though i have this feeling that he wanted to murder me,
cos i have no idea which was the fastest route to get to my place.
luckily, we didnt get lost, if not, i really wouldnt want to think of the consequences (ok, he's really not so fierce).
he enlightened me about certain things,
and for once, i think i sort of understood why and how it all happened.
instead of always thinking that it was my fault to begin with.
but as i told him,
what's in the past is in the past,
i really dont want to rake up anymore,
and i dont want to find out why,
because nothing can change the present.
was sms-ing ky during supper =)
i always think that guys'll mature after NS.
i dont really know if that's true,
but i do know that ky's sense of humour has improved. hahahaha
Ky: how are you...
me: not too bad... and feeling really old...
ky:lol! 1 yr older dan me oni lea? jialat...i'm getting old too..den MT become LT - Lau Tui
i was like.... diaozzz.....
i was trying really hard to control my laughter can... cmi.
after that, i had a short conversation with xunwei when i reached home.
found out what he's doing now and talked a bit =)
well, from our conversation, i think i can safely conclude that he has really grown up.
oh well.... my 2 adorable xiaoguas.
ok, maybe xunwei is not exactly a xiaogua, but i think he can be counted as one too,
at least to me.
as for today, i was supposed to attend emily's 21st birthday.
really sorry that i cant attend...
aunt called me early in the morning to tell me to go for family gathering.
hmm... as usual, another last minute notice.
cmi.
but well, it's a family gathering, and i will not miss that for anything.
i'm just really sorry that i had to fly emily kite.
sighz.
oh well, i had fun.
with all my cuzzies, uncles and aunts and my beloved grandpa! =)
he's forever adorable and we're always trying to find new ways to entertain him.
muahahahaha....
okok... i need to go to bed.
*yawnz*
long day tomorrow....
i love grandpa!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
oh well... just read from soccernet that England lost to Spain yesterday for the International friendly.. somehow, it came as quite expected to me.
i have this feeling that i'm slowly losing my interest in England. yes, England, not soccer. i dont even feel like what i used to feel whenever England lost a match. somehow, the present team doesnt inspire much confidence and seriously speaking, the coach Sucks! even though the previous coach was involved in some major scandal, but at the very least, he produced the result that was required. he might have stumbled here and there for a while, but still, i dont think things were THIS bad. and of course, with the departure of Beckham, my interest just plummeted. hahahaha.... i'm such a Beckhamaniac!
sighz... think i need to find some new team to look out for.... sighz...........
Carol's 21st Birthday Celebration 17th November....
wow... this is supposed to be a long ago entry... but as usual, i'm slow in posting up entries... and i refused to let all the photos go to 'waste'.
When june, daf and i were still in orchard....
look at the christmas decorations behind us... pweeeeeeety!
think this photo is quite cute! haha...
i like this pic with daf cos can see my hairband!! =D
then.... with CAROL!
the safarians present.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Hary Raya's Visit @ Jusri's.....12th November 2006
ok... this is like a way overdue entry. but i've just got the mood to do past entries...
oh well... i went to jusri's place right after the "sleeping with the beast" camp. i was really tired but in a way pretty excited too. afterall, i've not really go visiting on hari raya before =)
i think the Muslims were pretty well-dressed up, and it was a picture of colours!!!
renee. lynn. izhar. ashri.
have i ever mention that izhar cant stand my version of "twinkle twinkle little star"?
and ashri once thought that i had a crush of him because of a certain SOMEOME?
just look at meiway between renee and me.
lynn. me. renee. can you spot meiway? can you tell that she's trying really hard to squeeze into the shot?
i think this pic is quite a nice shot =D
look at what all of them are trying to do??!! pooor estar.
all the Muslims in the house!
all of us =)
i like this pic, it brings back fond memories.
