Sunday, February 27, 2005
Horoscope of 27th February 2005
You're no stranger to serious thoughts, or unfamiliar with going out of your way to do the right thing. Put it together and you get a nagging urge to help someone -- which, of course, you'll go out of your way to do.
Someone who's been on your mind a great deal lately will contact you soon -- maybe even today. The problem is, they'll want a lot more from you than just the chance to catch up. Does this mean you should let them take advantage of you and the tender, pensive mood you're in? Not at all. But if you need to let them know how you feel about the way you left things, even if it's just to gain closure, do it. You, more than anyone else, need to know where you stand.
Clear your calendar of anything that sounds like a drag and put yourself first. Sometimes it's not about pursuit or what you're lacking, but relaxing and what you've got. Yay!
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just came back from work not long ago. i'm really tired cos i woke up so early in the morning to go back to pj for the cycleton and talentnight audition thingy, and then after coming back home to take a short nap, i rushed off to work. sighz. 1 and a half hours on the walking trails is killing my feet. i wonder how am i going to be able to cope with the roving ranger...
i think the dry run that i had today was terrible. i couldnt remember most of my facts cos i was totally not ready for it =( i find it very difficult to treat lynn and anwar as guests, cos they are simply not =( i even stammered when i speak to them, trying my darn best to talk about the animals with my limited knowledge =( shucks! think i've really got to buck up already..
anyway, i tried read through my marketing notes today, but barely anything stayed in there manzz.. i have to work doubly hard for it. i'm still in the middle of my readings for Ben & Jerry's... i'm so screwed!
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Horoscope of 26th February 2005
Your current peer group -- all of whom you think of as kindred spirits -- are about to let you know just how much they value your input, support and boundless energy. Don't be shy. Smile and thank them. You know you've earned it.
You've been associating with them for weeks now, and you really feel at home with them. The good news is that they're feeling the same about you. So why not get together with them today? If you're feeling guilty about the friends you feel you've left behind, invite one or two of them along for the ride. Might be fun to see them all together.
Combat any laziness with one of your signature plans -- go ice-skating, gallery hop or crash a party. There's a good time (and possibly a great person) with your name on it out there.
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i'm go sleepy now. guess i'll be going to sleep real soon, have to wake up super early tomorrow cos gan will be here to pick me up at around 6.30 =|
went out for supper with gim, gan, philip and shufen just now at the prata shop. it was really quite fun cos gan was driving meh's mum's lorry and apart from me sitting at the front, the rest were sitting behind. gan purposely braked damn suddenly and philip skidded all the way to the front!! haha... it was hilarious! gan and i were realy having fun manz!
hm.. anyway, i got to eat the cheese cookies and rockyroad that fiona baked!! =D she passed some to me today in school =) yey! i love that girl manz!! hehe... anyway, most of us benefitted from it. it's quite delicious really!!!
hm.. ok.. think i better go off now.. since i have to go back to pj early tomorrow... since i'll be at some bookstore with yanmei after that, i shall bring some notes to read too... yey!! i must, and will be hardworking!!!
sighz. i think i'm hopeless. i just cant wake up in time to go for class. oh well... think this sem is so screwed for me =( gosh... guess i'll just have to be extra hardworking at home, reading notes and all the extra materials.
i didnt manage to go in time for marketing lecture today... oh well, not that i would be paying total attention, but at least the physical presence might have been a bit of comfort to my conscience. oh well, since i'm not there, i might as well go to the library and look for project relevant stuffs. hm.. guess i'll just spend the next hour reading about it, hopefully i'll make some contribution to the current project. if i thought last sem was bad, this sem was a disaster. i have no mood to study at all and at times when i feel like studying, it'll be those times when i'm stuck doing some other things, and multi-tasking is impossible.
i guess i need an organiser like yanmei, to sort out my life first... it's pretty screwed from the way i see it. no proper planning at all.. i'm so involved with irrelevant things that i seem to have forgotten about my priorities. i better just air my complains here and not to sok, i think i can already hear it coming, just a matter of time.
i guess the only good thing for today is that i'll be collecting yummy goodies from fiona.. yey! i've been loving her a lot lately =D haha... i have to be really nice k... if not, all my goodies will be forfeited. sighz. the things that one would do just for food =X
lalala... off to reading my stuffs....
Friday, February 25, 2005
Horoscope of 25th February 2005
A surprising call from a friend or loved one will get your day off to a startling beginning -- which, of course, is the last thing on earth you want. Still, if you relax, you might find you'll enjoy it.
Last minute turnarounds have never been on your top ten list of things you just can't live without, but you might have to learn to love them now -- at least temporarily. You have a carefully planned schedule, and you like it that way, but unfortunately, since we're not alone on the planet, our paths often intersect with those of others and when they change, we're forced to change, too. Oh, well. You might be surprised at how this all turns out.
You're a born romantic, and this is the kind of day that's made for your magic. What have you got up your sleeve? Now's the time to deploy it with a flourish.
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
Horoscope of 24th February 2005
The stars are still urging you to let go of everything you think of as normal in favor of going after exactly what you want. Ditch the usual and be brave.
Ready or not, the new improved you is going to hit the streets. Your friends will be quite interested in all these new traits you're exhibiting, so don't be afraid to let them see it all. That goes double for that irresistible urge you've had lately to just let go and be rebellious, outrageous and anything but conservative. Oh, this is going to be great fun, isn't it?
Forget about making the best of things -- if the stars have their way, you'll be presented with love on a silver platter. Don't forget to say thank you and use your napkin.
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hm.. it was fazlinda's last day.. cos she's off to get married =) haha.. so happy for her.. but it also means that one more crew is leaving =( sighz. the good thing is we are all invited to her wedding. i'm actually quite excited about it, because it's the first time that i actually get to attend a malay wedding. dont really know what it's like, but shall want to find out soon!!! =D i think we should really start thinking of what present to get for her too =)
hm... i'm actually considering a 1 year contract to teach at cristofori even though i dont exactly have good feelings towards it. i dont want to go back to teach at sonare cos i would prefer to gain some experience first before i want to go back there to teach, that is, if i still want to in the end =X hm.. mixed feelings about it, cos i dont really want to commit too much time into it but in the end, the returns are not balanced. sighz.
i want to go for the interview that fiona is talking about!!! hahah.. if i can actually get it, it'll solve the money factor if we are really going to pulau bangkil in may!! =D yey!! oh well... i better start studying hard too.. i've been procrastinating like mad!!!
hm.. okok.. got to rush for class now!!
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
some things were just running their course in my mind.
just some reflections.
i felt the dislike for him right there,
in me.
tolerance level running real low, but still, the control is there.
feeling evil right now, hoping that one day, all his evil deeds will be found out.
his hycritism will be realised.
he certainly doesnt deserve what he has now,
taking things for granted isnt the correct way of living life.
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apart from the commentary of the soccer match of madrid against juve,
it's silence.
night,
most appropriate moment to watch the video.
the time to let the bob swings,
and no matter how hard or how high it goes,
no one will get hurt.
no one needs to bother,
no one needs to care,
it just simply isnt worth a damn.
my eyes playing tricks on me.
ears hearing things that are no longer there.
mind with torn images.
the numerous things.
little things.
that make up my life.
Horoscope of 23rd February 2005
The stars are inspiring you to move one step closer toward falling deeply in love. If you suddenly feel closer to someone you've been casually dating, remember: There's a reason for this.
If you've been seeing someone recently, and were just starting to feel the passion between you growing, you'd better buckle up and put your table-tray in the upright position. You won't believe how quickly those emotions will pick up speed now. In fact, you should probably cancel any and all plans that involve public places or groups of more than just two -- you and that special someone. Investigate this immediately.
What started as a pure power struggle suddenly has a playful, even sexy edge. Watch some old movies to brush up on your banter, and watch the mood change in a fabulous way.
*****
just woke up from my nap. feeling quite sick now, not at all my usual chirpy self =( feel like puking, but somehow, it just doesnt quite come out.
went for a gathering just now with ming, melia, hani, isabelle and teo. just the 6 of us, cos addy was sick, juice cant make it, and sok sprained her ankle. well, we still had quite some fun. just realise something new about ming's relationship status. quite shock. i mean, it's really quite unexpected!
anyway, we settle for swensen at suntec, cos there wasnt any good halal restaurant around. there was this waiter, jeffreys, who caught the attention of our dear hani, and she was being super irritating the whole time we were there -_-" i think she's just so ready to devour him if given the chance. i almost fainted when i saw those looks that she gave when he's not really around, and when she wanted him to come back.
well, i'm checking out a few of those banks that has debit cards. i want to get the uob campus card that fiona is getting, and the mini visa that huiwen has. it's so nice!! haha.. think i'm beginning to be a bit like shuyi, becoming a card collector. the maybank debit cards are quite unique too, plus the good thing about it is they have up to 6 different designs, and they allow you to choose 3 of it, that means you'll be able to get 3 different debit cards to one account. ok, some of you might be thinking for what, but to me, i just feel like collecting them =P hehe! oh well, shall go to the bank personally and check it out myself =) think i'll just settle with the campus card first, then get the mini visa after that. haha! cos i only intend to deposit the minimum that is required. heh!
i'm currently my roving rangers' script. sighz. it's a long way to go. think i'm gonna stay up and watch my real madrid's match later, so guess i'll revise a bit of my marketing, i supposed. oh well, i really need to get down to serious work.. wish me luck ya!
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Horoscope of 22nd February 2005
You're happy, excited and perfectly ready to tell the world all about it. So what are you waiting for? Clear your throat and start talking. Happy news is always welcome news.
Talk about high energy. You're ready to take on the world -- and anyone in it who gets between you and your dear ones. That goes double for folks you're already not fond of. You're already as loyal as a friend could possibly be -- but now? Now you're armed and ready to fire. Heaven help anyone who decides it might be fun to see just how far you can be pushed. It won't take much.
If you find yourself smack in the middle of a not entirely comfortable romantic situation, practice your powers of mediation. With your skills put to use, everyone can get what they want -- including you.
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hm.. having a fever now...
feeling super uncomfortable.
having major conversations in msn.
one with the SIM group,
one with my night safari peepz =)
totally insane.
bonkers.
i'm just too tired...
too sick..
and i hope he's feeling fine.
Monday, February 21, 2005
Horoscope of 21st February 2005
The sudden intensity of the emotions you're going through is far less frightening than you'd ever imagined it to be. In fact, you're enjoying it. Go ahead. Pull out all the stops and let the change take over.
You may not have anywhere special to be today -- which will be a really, really good thing. In fact, even if you do have somewhere to be, bet you won't be there. You'll be far more in the mood to use all the delightfully passionate energy the universe is passing out in a far more private place. And you'll have absolutely no problem finding someone to join you.
Climb off that high horse and mingle with the regular people on their level. What feels like slumming could turn into a learning -- and loving -- experience.
*****
well, i'm having fun talking to fiona on the phone while onlining too. haha.. there's this irritating problem with her msn that cost her whole com to hang when someone messaged her. haha.. so when she said something to irritate me, i'll just drop her a message, and she'll have to restart her whole computer. haha.. luckily she's so nice that she has already forgiven me, if not, there'll be no more rockyroad for me =D heh..
hm... well, that lengzai is forever mean... sighz.. as sok said, he can go shake hands and be friends with benjing.. kns.. well, they always very mean anyway.. hmrpf!! =(
well, playing tennis with yeli and hopefully yanmei tomorrow =) yey!
i guess i'm just avoiding and avoiding.. oh well, it doesnt really matter anymore. guess even if i see him tomorrow, i wouldnt feel much for it. haha.. cos once again i do know how i feel about everything.. oh well.. dont really care anymore...
Horoscope of 20th February
It started yesterday, but you've been feeling this coming for a while now. There's a change en route, and you know it. Rather than being unhappy about it, however, you're actually kind of excited. And why not?
Hopefully, you got rest and relaxation time yesterday, because you probably won't get any today. A most electric, unconventional day awaits you -- which might sound good to some folks, but isn't usually your favorite. Well, there's only one thing to do. Find someone whose company you adore, and charm them into hiding out at your place. Hibernation can be a wonderful bonding experience -- especially if you've got all the right equipment: food, drink, videos, etc. Get provisions before you double-bolt the door!
Happiness, contentment and security aren't things that come from the outside but rather from your own cozy core. Shore up your inner resources by letting yourself feel these things for no particular reason at all.
*****
actually wanted to watch Constantine with jem, ky and xunwei, but i didnt go in the end, cos i was too tired. plus, the time slot for it at cine was really late. i think my mum will just murder me. in the end, i got convinced to watch constantine, but at jp instead. i didnt regret at all. it's a fantastic show!!! Keanu Reeves is so cool!! my gosh... he's really the perfect Constantine =)
he's just so cool!! it's a really good movie! hm.. my next aim is to watch Hide & Seek. hm.. then after that, it shall be White Noise =) hehe!! i'm so excited.. cant wait for it manz!!
hm... after that, we talked for a while while trying to find the toilet. heh.. fiona was so cute lor.. she kept complaining and complaining about mr M.. hahaha... i think she's really unlucky after what her mum did to all her facial products.. heh.. oh well, good luck girl.. =)
hm.. *yawnz* need to take a nap before i meet up with the rest to go to work... =)
Sunday, February 20, 2005
i just want to forget everything and start anew..
is that really so difficult?
i just want to get on with life and keep looking ahead..
is that so difficult?
i just want to love you from where i stand without asking for anything in return..
is that really so difficult?
why are things always so complicated?
when can it return to its simplest form?
Saturday, February 19, 2005
我想我真的选择了逃避。
我没有那种勇气，
所以我选择了放弃。
可能这样会好过一点，
至少也不会期望什么。
难道这不是预料中的吗
故事都还没开始，
就已经结束了。
Horoscope of 19th February 2005
Your words will be thoughtful, comforting and wonderfully supportive -- and whether or not you're actually asked for your advice, you'll offer it. The good news is that whomever you're speaking with will appreciate it.
You've often been told about what a great voice you have. But now, it's also going to be your words that will soothe, comfort and bring peace to warring factions -- even if one of those warring factions happens to be your family. You can do it. They may be at each other's throats, but you can calm them down -- just like you've always been able to. That goes for friends, too, by the way, even the newer ones.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained -- and the stars say that if you venture to make an overture now, it's more than likely you'll gain a phone number, a date or whatever it is you're after.
*****
*yawnz* just reached home.. did East Lodge with Uncle Kenneth today. i dont know if i drove him crazy or is it the other way round -.- he's really quite nice, at least for all the times that i've talked to him, he's always been really nice to me =) well, i guess today he was nice too, except for the last part when we were doing flushing. he kept wanting to tell me some of those stories to scare me. how irritating!!! i was quite scared actually, cos the tiger area was in total darkness, and since it actually makes up one big part of the walking trail, it is really scary when walking through that area. damn. he kept trying to spook me lahzz.. you cant believe how relieved i felt when i saw Constant =P
yeli waited for me today, and the 2 of us were being mischevious. haha.. we took transport home and there was this new staff from bongo. i dont know how it started, but yeli started calling me 'dear' and i just played along. that guy turned around and stared at us as though we were aliens, basically, he thought we were lesbians. haha.. it's so funny. then we just decided to make up this story and narrate it as though it's really happening.. hahah.. throughout the whole trip, yeli tried super hard to control her laughter, and when she failed to do so, she kept kicking me -.- how dumb right??!! well, it's was really fun.
the 4 of us (xiu ting, shikin, yeli and i) were making so much noise in the bus, i think most of them couldnt stand us. shikin and xiutin were laughing at yeli when she knocked her head 3 times while alighting the van. in the end, both of them knocked their heads as well.. =X with ting knocking the hardest.. haha.. and of course, i laughed the hardest and loudest too.. =X hahah..
i have a bad feeling of the last 3 guests that left east lodge on the last tram. i hope that i'm just feeling oversensitive, but somehow, i just dont have a good feeling about. somehow somewhat, i feel that there is something against me. i seriously hope that i'm just being oversensitive.. if not, i'm gonna be so dead.
Friday, February 18, 2005
Horoscope of 18th February 2005
As if you weren't already deeply enmeshed -- quite happily so -- within your current peer group, here's yet another chance to snuggle up with a new and improved batch of kindred spirits.
These new folks you've been seeing so much of lately? They're really something, aren't they? You feel quite happily involved with them. In fact, it probably feels like you've known them all for far longer than you have. Well, that's a big plus, and you'll be seeing a great deal of them over the next few weeks. Just don't forget your 'old' friends in the process. Why not get them all together?
*****
i feel so guilty when i'm enjoying myself. these past 2 weeks, i've not been doing any revision of any sort at all. so ashamed of myself =( well, i guess i'll have to make it up during these few weeks. i went to check the test dates of econs and marketing, and realise that it's just a few weeks away and i dont really know much about both subjects at all. sighz. i'm sooooo useless.
i want to go swimming after project discussion tomorrow... hm.. wonder what time are they going to meet up.. hope that i'll be able to swim for at least an hour before going to work. hm.. was thinking of going for a jog in the morning before going to school too... but i doubt my ability of waking up early -.- sighz. i think it really feels good to jog once in a while.. hahah.. dont know why.. but just feel like going jogging.. and focus my attention to try to maintain the pace and keep up with the stamina, rather then have my head filled with useless images and stupid ideas.
hm.. was at tram station 1A today, and apart from seeing him twice over there, i managed to get him out of my sight for the whole day =) am actually very happy about it... i'm glad that miss B is ok today... was so worried about her when i saw her so totally frustrated with herself.. sighz. guys are nothing but trouble.
anyway.. felt kind of touched today cos of certain thing.. but oh well... let's not dwell too much on it, else it'll just start all over again...
hey!! did i mention that we gave haniman this cute little drawing? argh!! quite irritated with myself for not taking a picture of it.. haha.. i think we are just so evil.. we use marker to draw lines to divide the paper into 6 parts, and drew the 5 different incidents that he had within this month... with a big big question mark in the 6th box and 'good luck' written below.. haha... we're just so jek ark!! well.. but we are still nice people... =)
hm... i'm quite tired now.. but still, i feel like reading up some of those com law chapters first before going to bed... still thinking if i should go jogging tomorrow morning.. sighz...
Thursday, February 17, 2005
these are a few of the pictures that yanmei and i took for the past few days =)
although i'm not really in this picture, but this is one of the photos that i like =)
this is the big heart-shaped blueberry muffin that fiona baked for us =D
Horoscope of 17th February 2005
All those good things you've been feeling? That 'just knowing' that something good was coming your way? You were absolutely right. It won't be long now. Sit tight, and keep doing what you're doing.
Trust your intuition above all else right now. No matter what else happens, it's the one thing you can be sure of. After all, has it ever let you down before? So when someone comes along trying to distract you from your purpose, or talk you into doing something you really don't feel right about, refuse. Focus on your goals. You can have it all now, but only if you stay focused!
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*yawnz* i'm super tired now... i need to do a quick update and go to bed soon =O
was on the phone with fiona and yanmei until 6 in the morning.. met up with fiona at 1130 to go for a swim before our tennis date with yeli =) ahaha... swimming was quite fun actually.... and i swam!! i didnt just soaked in the water k!! yeyeyeyeyyy!!
went to play tennis after that and i managed to improve on my serve, and sort of learn how to return serves =) so happy... felt a sense of satistaction =) went for a jog after that... though was quite happy.. but somehow, felt a bit down too...
i think yanmei caught my disease lor.. cos in the end, after the whole day, she also had moodswing... sighz.. not to mention that ah xiu was feeling upset.. aiyozz... sighz.. it's just not a fantastic day for us.. plus haniman was looking so glum too.. then we were wondering what happened to him.. aiyoz.. oh well.. hopefully, it's going to be a much better tomorrow =)
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Horoscope of 16th February 2005
A group you've recently become very close to will love you even more now because of something you've inadvertently done to endear yourself to them. Remember, there really is something to be said for unselfish giving.
For the next month or so, you'll become more deeply involved with a group of people you've been seeing a lot of lately. These individuals will become increasingly dear to you, and you to them. Chances are good you'll share either a spiritual, artistic or musical connection. Chances are even better that one of them will appeal to you for a lot more than platonic reasons. Bet you know exactly who that is, too.
*****
it's like 6 in the morning?? haha.. just ended my 4 and a half hours of conference conversation with fiona and yanmei of lollipops and mr M =P hm... well, it's time to change lollipops... not available to me anymore... hahaha.. oh well... long story..
anyway.. today was quite a funny day.. they were so short of TCs that lynn had to do commentary personally... how diaoz lor.. since she's the assistant manager of operations now.. =) plus, our dear unlucky boy, haniman lost his cashcard, cos he stupidly left it in his bike, and there were 180 bucks in the cashcard.. =X hahaha.. how dumb lor... guess he'll be stuck with this nick, unlucky boy, for some time... i think he really needs to change his bike.. within a month, so many things had happened to him... gosh... ah ha!
anyway.. celebrated Valentine's day with fiona, yeli and yanmei yesterday =) had fun.. exchanged presents.. and fiona baked this ultra big muffin cake for us =) there were rocky roads too!!! yum yum!! poor haniman missed all of it.. hahaha! i made him so jealous today when i told him all the food that we had.. lalla...
went out with sok, kiam, jun, song, zj and qj for a movie before that. racing stripes, a really good movie!!! i laughed till i cried for some part =) oh well, should really try that movie.. hm.. i have so many photos with me... wait till i'm all set and ready to post them ya.. should be pretty soon.. =)
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Horoscope of 13th February 2005
Still longing for a few hours of alone time, without the intrusions of the phone, the doorbell or the computer? Well, take it. Turn off anything that beeps, and kick back. You'll be busy enough tomorrow.
In just 24 hours, you'll be under constant supervision -- loving, attentive, wonderful supervision, but supervision, nonetheless. If you're not too excited about it, why not take the night off? You can always insist that you need time to prepare. No one needs to know that you're perpetually ready for a romantic, sensual evening at your place. And wouldn't it be nicer to be together if you missed each other, just a touch? You know what they say about absence.
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hm... *yawnz* it's about 0639 in the morning. i'm still awake cos i just finished playing mahjong with fiona, yanmei and prisc. hm... think fiona is so blur.. she kept lagging and so, miss lots of chances.
i dont know if i can wake up in time to go to xuan's house for visiting tomorrow.. and i'm considering going shopping with the safari peepz too... cos i need to buy some things.. sighz. should i or should i not? hmmmz...
think i might just give xuan's house a miss... cos i think once i'm there, i'll be super reluctant to leave for work... sighz. plus, i have things that need to be done.. argh!!!
went to check out friendster and saw those disgusting photos =X ewww... well, i think they are really certified and qualified bitches and sluts.. oh well... who cares? plus, HE really looks as if he puts foundation on his face... ewww.... i dispise faggorts like him who tries to look macho! yuck!
ok.. i better try to catch some sleep before i have to leave my house tomorrow... i need to buy some things.. and then later go for work.. lalallaa.... i'll be seeing bang bang tang =) plus, vivien and fiona has checked it out that he'll be working the whole of next week... YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.. as for the big lolli... shall heck it first... lalalal...
Saturday, February 12, 2005
i saw him today.. but i think he couldnt recognise me. sighz. he was quite shock when i said hi to him.. sighz.
stupid yeli just had to tell me that small lollipop was sitting with them after work!! argh!!! apparently, i'm the only one missing lahz!! total sian-ness!!! sighz.
hahaha.. anyway, i cant wait to get his photos from yanmei.. yippppppppeeeee!!!
Horoscope of 12th February 2005
Just in time to make this a day you won't soon forget, a very powerful cosmic team has joined forces. Their efforts may lead you into more intrigue, or more secrets -- or both. Won't that be fun?
A partner or a dear old friend -- someone you either share your deepest thoughts or your checkbook with (or both) -- will make you a rather odd, yet extremely wonderful, offer. The kind you absolutely couldn't refuse, even if you wanted to -- which you won't. Fortunately, it's the perfect time for just such an activity. And if there's a bit of secrecy involved, so much the better.
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just came back from xiao gu's place =) haha.. had a fun time there playing mahjong =) yey! i think i'm a bit addicted already... oh well, the addiction will go away. think fiona, yanmei and prisc are coming over to my place to play mahjong tomorrow!!! hehe!! good good good!!
today is zen yen's birthday too =) hahah.. so the kids had a wonderful time. i think there were about 20 children in the same house. luckily, uncle ken is rich enough to have such a big house =) that's why they can have so many people over.. yey! hm.. had red wine, nice =P
brought sherrilyn and her friends into night safari before going back to xiao gu's place. i think i must be the weirdest employee. not working, and i'm back almost everyday.. how dumb right? =X hahah.. but i lurvvvvvvvvvvvvvve that place.. so it doesnt matter!!! hmrpf!
hm.. i'm so tempted to buy a vanilla vodka tomorrow.. so that they would have something to drink.. hmrpf.. can consider.. but i think it's not cheap -.- so much consider.. haha.. anyway, i love bailey's... cos it's creamy and sweet.. qouted from jo.. bleahz!
hm.. i think i better go sleep soon.. i'm supposed to meet min and the rest at 9 in the morning at somerset -_-||| argh!!! soooooooooo early!! all min's fault!! she and her kaya toast!! kns!!! hmrpf!! i hope i'll be able to wake up in time.. think i'm gonna wear that red halter that i bought when i was with her the other day.. hahaha.. i love it manz!! hehehehe!!! oh well... going to ikea tomorrow after that.. if not, i could have just go and watch constantine with june and fiona tomorrow.. lalala... =D hehe! i wanna watch movie lahz!!!
i think my dear chang is going to complain very soon.. hahhaa... lalala.. oh well..next time i'll invite you to my place too k??!! dont angry lahz!! =D you are my friend still!!!!
*yawnz* sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy... ZZzzzZZzzzz...
i finally met up with him after such a long time.
i guess it is only right to face up my fears.
it's almost like a nightmare coming true.
this awkwardness between us though i tried to act as if nothing has happened.
this uneasiness that i was feeling.
avoiding is never the solution.
but still,
i would rather let's just not talk about it again.
Friday, February 11, 2005
Horoscope of 11th February 2005
On the surface, you may seem to be your usual calm, cool, collected self, but there's definitely something on your mind. Something that may bother you enough to actually cause a ripple on that ordinarily stoic surface.
There's something going on. You're sure of it, and you're not willing to stand for it any more. You, however, are just calm, cool and collected enough to make all parties involved believe that you're over it -- or that you never knew to begin with. If they weren't being so darned sneaky and manipulative, you'd almost have to feel sorry for them. But they are, so don't -- not even a tiny, little bit.
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it's almost 4 in the morning, and i'm still awake, watching my tv =) i think i'm really a super tv addict =X
i'm enjoying myself tremendously these few days =) reunion dinner at my grandfather's house on new year's eve. playing cards with my uncle and cousins after that. went to the temple with my mum, uncle, aunt and cousin to pray. it's the first time praying in there after a few years. i never really like to step in there, cos' the whole place is so smoky and it cause irritation to my eyes. that day, my cousin and i almost couldnt breathe. i was just suffocating. sighz. anyway, they used mandarin oranges to form 4 words in the temple, and people are supposed to guess what numbers do they tell us. i was thinking of 7508, so the next day, i bought this number. in the end, the first prize was 5780. i almost fainted!!! told my mum about it, and i got a big scolding from her -_-" sighzzz... how would i know i'll be so bright to guess the number correctly..
went visiting on the first day of new year. a very hectic day cos i simply have too many relatives =) well, went to my grandfather place, slack there for quite a while. now, i also feel that having daughters is better then having sons =P cos i realise that every year, all my aunts and even female cousins that have married, they will always come back early in the morning first, and spend most of the time of the day with the big big family. went to my aunt's place later, and saw my 2 nephews. haha.. they are so cute!!! no matter what you do, they'll just smile at you =) haha.. so adorable! went to my grandmother's house after that. and for once, i actually reached before all my aunts, uncles and cousins went off. for like the past 3 to 4 years, i only managed to finish my paternal side's visiting around evening. but cos this year, there were too many people going, plus my grandmother just recovered from a stroke, so i definitely have to go earlier. i chose to skip some of the visiting of my paternal side in the end. if not, i'll miss it again =( played cards with my cousins, and after that mahjong. i lost about 3 plus bucks, and improved on my rusty skills =P haha... how happy! now i'm better at it, and all set and ready to chiong with prisc and carol on saturday if we are playing =D hahah!
my cousin finally brought her fiance home. haha.. i think he really got a shock, when he heard the volume of our family. i could hear them right down the corridor.. haha.. so dont need to wonder where i got my loud voice from.. it simply runs in the family =D and in a way, i'm proud of it.. i dont know.. sort of like a symbol of the family =D lalaala.. all sorts of language and words and stupid phrases came out, as usual, from youngest uncle and second cousin. the 2 of them, forever making us crack with laughter =) reached home at around 0130.
i woke up only at around 12 noon today.. ahaha... and i was swept to my granduncle's house at around 1530 =) haha.. it was so crowded... there were so many people there.. hahaha.. sort of quite boring there for me, cos my other cousins were so young.. and all into gameboy -_-" but luckily, my usual kakis were there, so at least we got to crap a bit =)
went to aunt sylvia's house after that =) hahaha.. for the first time, i finally know who is gad, after hearing his name for like the millionth time... well, he's really not bad-looking.. but i dont think eugene is good-looking, that's for sure. plus, eugene got the typical ACS(I) snobbish look.. a bit irritating ah! hm.. whereas for gad.. i think he doesnt look as if he's from ACS(barker) at all.. oh well.. not my prob =D
as usual, my super duper nice uncle ken (my aunt's husband), drove me to the night safari so that i can meet up with fiona, yeli and yanmei. i waited for over an hour for them.. almost puke blood!!! anyway, i saw both big and small lollipops! hahaha... and now i have small bang bang tang's photos too!! all thanx to yanmei.. love her manz!! hehe!! but it was really disappointing when i didnt get to talk to big bang bang tang at all even though he walked past me quite a few times =( oh well....
saw mr yeo in night safari. hahaha.. it was a pure coincidence. i was on the tram at station 2 when he was queuing up for the tram again. hahah.. i recognise him from his cap. haha.. how weird right?!! hahaha... called him and said hi... aiyoz.. that guy, should have told me earlier, and i'll just get tix for him.. he was on vivien's tram.. i wonder what did he think of her... hahaha =X
i cant wait for day to come.. hahaha.. going to xiao gu's house later.. yey! it's in sembawang.. which makes me super tempted to go back to safari since all of them will be working tomorrow... how irritating right??!!! sighz. feel like working, but i cant miss tomorrow's gathering.. there'll be lots of people.. all my uncles and aunties are going.. not forgetting all those long-distance cousins! =) what to do.. my aunt's father-in-law is too rich.. haha.. i'm sure i'll have lots of fun!! yey! more gambling.. and hopefully, i'll win back the money that i lost.
hm... i think i'm gonna be so tired later.. i have to repack my whole room.. MAJOR PACKING tomorrow... cos the safari peepz might be coming over to my place on saturday night.. i think i'll have the neighbourhood police calling at my door on saturday night. with the crowd that we'll be having, i think we're going to be the noisiest family in this neighbourhood. hahah... my paternal side and maternal side relatives are coming over... plus my friends.. cards and maybe mahjong.. think it's going to be pack pack pack! hehehe.. but i like.. i sort of love crowds and gatherings like this! =D cant wait for it!
gonna start work only sunday.. yippee!! i know the rest are going to tempt me back to work with all my lollipops as baits.. no way!!! it's rare that i get to rest for so long.. so dont even think about it!! hmrpf!!!
ok.. think i better get to sleep... i need lots of energy and patience and perseverence and determination to pack my room tomorrow... wish me luck ya! =)
Horoscope of 10th February 2005
You've got a lot of chatting to do, but you won't want any of it to be about superficial matters. You want to discuss politics, religion and all those other topics most of us tend to avoid. How brave!
Ready for a conversation? A real conversation? Good -- because each and every person you exchange more than just a few words with today will expect nothing less from you. No casual, light-hearted banter will do -- not for the moment. The good news is that you'll probably be amazed at how many people are on the same team as you. Don't be shy about revealing your position on any of the big issues.
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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
it's the second day of new year only, so i'm still pretty much very in the mood. ok.. it doesnt change the fact that i've lost about 30 bucks =( all thanx to my uncle.. i think he killed us all!
*yawnz* it's already noon, and i'm feeling so super sleepy. sighz. now, i dont know if i should go visiting later.. sianzz.. but i think i should go, cos all my cousins are going. so disappointing that the plan for tonight is cancelled =( hm.. if not, i wont feel so bored. oh well, tomorrow night's gonna be at my aunt's place, can wait for her buffet... hahaa.. i'm feeling really hungry now, since mum's not cooking... hm.. her satays are the best!!!!! yum yum!! cant wait for it manz!
my collection seems to have decreased this year =( sighz. oh well, it's ok.. in fact, i'm quite surprised that it can sustain for such a long time. afterall, i'm almost 20. gosh! i'm sooooooooooo old!
i cant wait for the 4th day to come too =) havent decide whose place to go yet, but i cant wait for play mahjong with carol n prisc, then maybe joe too! =) hahahaha... i think if we are really going over to joe's place, yan mei and yeli and june are also going over!! hehe... i dont think i have any intention to win big money, as long as i dont lose, i'm quite alright with it. cos i have this feeling, we'll all be slaughtered by joe.. hahaha... must bribe jeree to be on our side!
*yawnz* think i better slack a while more.. before i have to make my way out again..
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Horoscope of 8th February 2005
You hadn't realized until now just how ready you were to let go of the past and move along toward a brand-new future. Now that the truth is out, don't stop.
You're torn between letting yourself whisper the words you want to say (no matter who's in the room) and holding onto your secret for just a few more days. Don't be torn any longer. As long as there's no one else involved -- no one who might be hurt by the revelation -- you should feel free to let it out. Voicing your feelings now will be part of a whole new start for you -- and you're more than ready!
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in my uncle's house now updatingv my blog.. what to do? my damn modem is spoilt, cos that stupid on/off button is not in working order. gosh! now, i've to wait until after new year before i can get it fixed.
hm... got 5 days off from work, yupz! a sense of satisfaction! yey! i think i wont be able to make it all the way... i'll most probably be going back to work either on friday or saturday night. yey! i hope we'll still be going to joe's house on the saturday night to play mahjong =)
lalalala.... oh well, i'm determined to enjoy myself during this festive season!!!
Monday, February 07, 2005
Horoscope of 7th February 2005
Three times a year, the universe spoils you rotten. This is one of those times, and in your case, it's the powers that be who will see you in this cosmic spotlight. Ready or not, it's your turn to shine.
You've been working really hard with a bit more gusto than usual for the past six weeks. Well, guess what? It's time to be rewarded for your efforts -- yes, finally! This may not mean that a raise, promotion or bonus is coming your way today -- but it won't be far behind. Rest assured that the powers that be are investigating, and quite happy with what they've seen.
yesterday was a great day!!! haha! loads of fun, good music, good company, great night! =)
before that...
went to the vocal consort's concert on friday =) it wasnt exceptional or something, and the worse things was this super lousy performance by the CSS choir. ewwwww... it was so depressing, i dont think it can be any worse. sighz. what happen??!!!
after that, we (linda, limin, sok and i) wanted to find some pub and chill, but since we couldnt make up our mind, we decided to go eat instead. went to 7-11 to buy some drinks and than started to find our way to the nearest food centre. wanted to go lau pau sat initially, but we were too lazy to walk all the way there. in the end, we gave up looking for a place to eat and went to min's place instead.
after our bathes, we started playing bridge.. haha.. i think it gets to a point where min and i were all geared up to go into a bickering session so that we wont fall asleep. haha.. the game was progressing too slowly for my liking that linda and i were almost dozing off. haha! oh well... we had great fun anyway and stayed up all the way till 5.30 in the morning, and that is only because i am having a course on saturday afternoon, so i desperately need to get some sleep.
our plan to sleep didnt go as planned cos we ended up talking about all sorts of nonsense. haha.. managed to wake up at 11, but cos i was happily taking my own sweet time, and we were busy munching and watching telvision that in the end, i had to take a cab to rush down to night safari. sighz. i was almost late for the course at 1400. sighz.
herry and i were wearing pink, and they almost called us pinkie 1 and 2. -_-||| the course was ok, quite interesting at certain points =) hahaha.. had a bit of fun but cos it ended quite late, so some of us had to run to the cashier's room to collect our card, run to punch it, and run to iron our clothes, and then dash to the toilet to change into it. argh!!
after work, clara, vivien, yanmei and i rushed all the way down to meet up with fiona. i think she was really fuming cos we were so late. anyway, thanks to fiona, we got to into chinablack without having the need to join the super duper long queue, cos she has this friend that's working there =) hahah.. when inside, we saw lots of cutes guys, listen to loads of nice music and saw some free shows =X hahaha.. anyway, we had loads and loads of fun. haha!! ordered drinks, tried a bit of tequila, tasted fiona's bailey's, and realised that i like both of it. but i still dont like beer, so herry was the only one who drank it, cos none of the girls like it. haha! we had vodka redbull too. nice =) hahaha.. but it was too mild. hm...
i think it was really funny when sing sms-ed me to tell me to inform him earlier the next time i'm going clubbing.. hahaa.. i think i made jac damn gian... hahaha.. oh well.. i didnt know mahzz... =P hehe!
we went off at around 3.30 in the morning cos fiona has to help her parents the next day and clara's boyfriend came to pick her up. hm... *yawnz* sleepy...
before... =)
after.... =P
both bang bang tangs were working today.. hahaha.. and i got to see his stupid photo.. it was so different from the present him =P haha.. anyway, i got to see june's maltese, cos her parents brought him along when they came to pick her up!! hahah.. so cute, but ah bee like that, like to bark at people.. hahaha
didnt go home immediately, sat outside ben & jerry's with yeli and yanmei to talk talk.... hahahaah.. oh well, now i have 2 more kakis le.. *winkz* haha.. and yesh, 2 more people who knows about my bang bang tang... hahahaha... but at least yanmei agrees with me on 1. in fact, she thinks he's good-looking, i only think he's cute. haha! =X
lalala... going shopping tomorrow.. cant wait for it!!
you want me to tell you how i feel?
at that time, i felt this stab of jealousy,
heard by heart breaking.
realised that my vision was getting blurred and watery.
that was what i felt.
but still, you wouldnt know.
cos it'll never occur to you.
and we are too far apart.
the network seems to have failed us.
i guess it wasnt the best of all things.
i didnt know what i should feel, or what i was expected to feel.
i didnt realise that i've miss the presence so much until it's absence was felt.
as i read the story again and again, looking at the little hints and indications, it occurred to me that i was the only one affected. the other party, X, didnt feel anything at all.
and with the little notes that i've seen, i realise that X is getting on perfectly fine with another Y that has become significantly important as the story progresses.
gosh! i hate this story. and it'll break my heart to know that it's not a happy ending afterall. stupid book!
Friday, February 04, 2005
Horoscope of 4th February 2005
Things have been going along at an amazingly fast pace lately, but you're up for it. So when that higher-up lets you know, once again, that they're interested in promoting you for bigger and better things, try to look surprised.
You must be tickled that it's finally time to have fun. You're the most sensual sign out there, and you know it. So when you become aware that you're especially 'in the mood,' (like you'll be when you wake up this morning,) there's just not going to be any stopping you -- and no stopping your partner from giggling in delighted anticipation. In the meantime, get through the day and impress your boss with how meticulous you're being. There's no question that you'll enjoy the evening.
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i think the readings of my horoscope for tomorrow is a bit stupid lahz. haha.. i think after so many things, i dont need to 'look' surprised if it really happens, i'll be 100% shock!!
oh well, now fiona knows who are my bang bang tangs, all thanks to my blog -.- never mind lahzz.. i know hers too =P
yey! going to stayover at min's place tomorrow with sok and linda =) lady's night's out, which also means we can play a whole night of bridge!! now, i'm having this super big headache. i dont know how am i going to bring so many change of clothes without being dat glam at all!! shucks!
i need to bring a set of uniform, cos i'm working on saturday. i need to bring clothes for tomorrow's concert. i need to bring another set for saturday night's clubbing with fiona, herry and vivien. hm... and also diana, maz and lisa. haha! too bad prisc cant come with us, i think she's gonnnnnnaaa be superrrrrr jealous! well, i've yet to ask carol, need to sms her soon. haha.. and june has yet to reply. alalaal.. i cant wait for it =D
hm.. i think i've unknowingly cause a problem.. jia lat.. feel so guilty.. sighz.. hey girl.. so sorry.. didnt know that it caused a problem for you.. i'll try to refrain from singing my lollipop song to you for a week to make it up k! =) sighz. hope things will only get better... *hugz*
so sleepy now.. i need to get some sleep, cos tomorrow is going to be one hell of a boring lecture!!
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Horoscope of 3rd February 2005
A higher-up you're willing to swear has had you jumping through hoops is about to come clean and let you know the powers that be have big plans for you.
On the one hand, you're totally engrossed in your work -- for totally professional reasons. On the other hand, there's a certain authority figure that's been on your mind lately -- for totally unprofessional reasons. Well, now. Isn't this interesting? There's only one thing to do: Your job. Do it well, and do it thoroughly. And if you really have to ask an awful lot of extremely detailed questions -- just to make sure you're doing everything right, of course -- well, that's just the way it is. Over lunch, maybe?
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i'm still sick of his attitude, but i think i've really tried my best to be nice to him, so i dont really care anymore. i'm just so sick and tired of being nice and get sucky attitude from him in return.
i guess i'm so going to fail my final theory, not that i dont deserve it since i barely read through that book =( oh well, i just wasnt prepared for it.
think i drove prisc and june crazy today =D haha.. june is so ready to stuff hi-chews into my mouth just to keep me quiet =X haha.. oh well, i was singing this sickening songs about lollipops for the whole day, and it sort of drove the rest crazy =D haha.. was just too high, and in too good spirits to even bother about what others said. well, bonus would be that both lollipops were working today =) not like it makes too big a difference.
i'm still hooked to that big big big big big big big big lollipop of mine =P oh well, doesnt matter too.. hahaha..
was telling haniman and fiona about the car breaking down story and i can almost hear the story being told by the victim itself that i almost laugh till tears came =)
i guess i wasnt prepared to confess everything just yet. i need some time to clear up my jumbled thoughts in my head. somehow, that email that i had received wasnt all that flattering either. quite sick that i'll be facing them throughout the whole of 4 hours. fuck! i guess the only good thing is that there's some nice friends around, and the weird thing will be i'm the only chinese out of the 10 people going for it. shucks! how weird this is going to be -_-"
suddenly, i just dont like him. argh!!!!!! no more eye candies!!!! hmrpf!
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
have i just think of you like never before?
have i just remember that you are different from the rest?
have i just realise that you are not the same anymore?
have i just realise that things could have been better?
have i just realise that i want things to be better between us?
have i just realise that i dont want things to be simple between us?
have i just realise that i want something from you?
have i just realise that you mean more then just a friend to me?
have i just realise that you brighten up my day without even knowing how and why?
have i just realise that you were my motivation for a lot of things?
have i just realise that there are things worth sacrificing because of you?
have i just fall in love with you without even knowing why?
Horoscope for 2nd February 2005
A startling new higher-up whose methods of management are anything but run-of-the-mill will be along shortly. As fond as you are of convention, you may bump heads with them initially, but don't worry: Your hard work will still be appreciated.
It's not exactly true that you're stubborn. Fixed, maybe, focused, for sure and definitely fond of your routine -- but stubborn? Well, stubborn is a bit harsh. So when a new authority figure arrives with a whole new way of doing things -- and when you're not exactly tickled about it -- don't let anyone pin that one on you. Besides, you never know. Time may prove that you were right to resist at least one of the changes they want to initiate.
心理有一种莫名的厌倦。
一种莫名的感触。
脑海里的影子好模糊，
虽看不清楚在眼前忽隐忽现的面孔，
但还是能认出那熟悉的背影。
是你吗
还是那只是我的幻觉
oh my..
i cant believe that i dreamt of him. it's a first time.
how weird. considering that the dream is how impossible. but the idea that was displayed is not that bad =X hahaha... oh gosh..
now i really wonder how it'll be like if dreams become reality =))))
argh!! me and my hopelessness..
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
had a short phone conversation with sok on my way home yesterday.
somehow, i just couldnt fathom why dory said that about me.
i guess i just wanted to live in self-denial.
oh my..
when is it ever going to be over?
oh gosh!!!!
i just received the Roving Ranger's script.
oh my gosh!!! it's 13 pages... i feel like fainting. serious!!
on top of my chinese script, i now have 13 pages more to memorise for the walking trails!!!
*fainted*
Horoscope of 1st February 2005
You're about to meet someone you'll find extremely interesting. The reason you'll find them interesting, however, is because they're just a bit 'dangerous.' Be sure it's only just a bit.
For the next few days, it's going to be all about relationships for you, kid. Forget about giving your attention to anything else. If you're already attached, that's good news -- especially for your lucky partner, who'll be on the receiving end of some wonderfully sensual attention, starting now. If you're not attached -- well, it's definitely time to resume the hunt. The universe has equipped you with everything you need to track down Mr. or Ms. Right. Get busy!
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the discovery of many other blogs made me fear for my own skin =X sighz. it's just too easy to track stuffs. nothing is too public, but neither are they private. it just seems like if you keep a blog, everyone will just know about it sooner or later. i shudder at the thought of the attitude gang ever finds out of what i wrote about them even though it's completely true.
i didnt know she's such a bitch. ok, maybe bitch is too mild a word, WHORE is more like it. i wont be surprised if she's the one that BJ fucked the other time. i mean, she's most likely the one consider the fact that she always drink till she drops. ew. she's so cheap! anyway, i think throwing herself at guys is quite the norm when it comes to her. i cant believe how she took pictures with CS. ewwwwww.... she's so cheap. bitching about them has worsen my impression of them. oh well, not that there's much good ones to start with. all of them are full of attitude, and think they are damn cool. oh well, just before they start to ostracise people, i think they are the ones that people dont really feel comfortable being around lor. oh.. screw them.
anyway, i went to cck sports complex to play badminton with vivien, june, fiona, prisc and hans =) after for about an hour, we played a bit of tennis. actually, we really didnt play much of tennis, but after about half a hour, i managed to learn how to serve the ball across the net, which i feel is quite good since this is my second time playing and the first time, i think i only managed to swing the racket at most 10 times without hitting the ball even once =P hehe..
i think we really had fun laughing at june. she's quite off-form ahzz.. then she came up with this name called 'lao shu shi'. heh! funny lahzzz.. oh well, we bitched all the way when we were in the toilet bathing. poor hans was waiting patiently for us outside the female toilet =X haha.. oh well, got to find out a lot of things that has been going on, or that had happened =X haha..
fiona and vivien behind the racket.
thanks to fiona that we have this picture -_-||| kns.
yey yey! all 6 of us! =)
i'm in the midst of checking my emails now and i'm so surprised that just within 2 days and i have like 11 new emails -_-||| and 5 out of that 11 is contributed to my bang bang tang. how diaoz -_-" all the important and non-important matters are all in my inbox. oh well.. not that i've a lot to grumble about =X hahaha... lalaaa...
oh well... think i better go and study first. sighz. i'm so screwed.. anyway, i cant wait for friday to come.
and nana, if you are reading this, i'm so sorry that i've been so busy with work that we didnt get to spend much time together and slacking and going out. hope that you'll be back soon ya... and i'll miss you!! remember those photos that you promised me k!! =) love ya.. *hugz*
