Thursday, September 30, 2004
yey! real madrid won!! haha... was a really exciting match! it's been a really long time that i last watched champs league.. haha... couldnt help myself.. so watched it last night... =) was crestfallen when roma got in the first 2 goals, almost thought that it'd be the end of real... but they came back so strong with 4 goals and dominated the rest of the game =) credit should really go to raul =) yey!!! never regret watching it... =) and man u won their match too! =) haha... double bliss! with a superb score of 6 - 2 somemore... hehe! yey!
i think hani is funny. sms-ed me out of nowhere with this weird sms... haha.. i think she's really desperate about it already =X well, shall see how the both of us can help each other =X
well, didnt see him today... hope i wont see him tomorrow too.. haiz... loooooooooong day tomorrow... waiting for friday to come.. feel like attending accounts lecture... seems fun to me =P and i actually feel like doing ushering for a change... haha... lalal...
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Love Of My Life
Love of my life you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life don't leave me
You've taken my love you now desert me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
You will remember
When this is blown over
And everything's all by the way
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you I still love you
Back hurry back
Please bring it back home to me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life
Yeah
listening to: kan jian by joi cai
this is not a new song by her... in fact, it's pretty old already... but it's one of those songs that you dont get tired listening to it... hm... ok... was thinking if i should burn some of her songs for xuan.. think she would like it... her kinda songs i feel =)
somehow, i feel that xuan staying in hostel is not a bad idea at all =P haha.. at least, now she's not so deprived of going online... she is able to go online everyday... without even having to subscribe to the server =X heh! hm... well, net is a good way to keep in touch =) anyway, i promised to send her a mooncake that has the egg york one, that is if i still have any left... haha... hm.. ok.. maybe i'll go visit the usual kias on thurs... since i dont need to go to school on thurs... then i can just go to work after that =) hehe.. maybe i'm also able to meet up with the freneys too... well, that would kill 2 birds with 1 stone... why not? hmmmz...
called hani today just before my work... haha.. was too bored.. and wanted to ask how she's doing =) hahah.. as usual, we have lots of grumbles and complaints here and there... haha.. think she's got the right trainer.. our super explicit BJ! haha... i think they really suit each other... the lame and the lamer.. haha... the 2 of them can go and fight it out to claim the crown =P haha.. anyway, i think a few more weeks and hani can start working =) yey!! cant wait for her to join the group!!!! hahaa... think it'll be fun... plus another month or so juice will be back too =) hahah... ok... then all of can really crap like nobody's business by then =) yey!
haha... was telling hani about him.. and she sounded quite neutral about it. haha.. she doesnt seem or sounded shock at all.. -.- ... sighz... that's not supposed to be good news.. anyway, hani confused him with another guy... how diaoz... -_-"
was actually quite happy going to work today.. at the bus-stop, there's this super cute caucasian that came up to ask me how to go about going round the night safari... and before that he was so super polite... he was extremely apologetic for troubling me when i've not even begin my work.. haha... but it was ok.. cos he's cute =X ooopZ! anyway, was feeling quite happy and a bit high when i wanted to go punch-in... sianz. totally didnt expect him to be in the room at all... was quite surprised, and the change of expression on my face was so obvious... my smile totally disappeared. -.- well, i didnt even said hello.. just got my card, punched in and get out. haiz... dont know leyz.. it just seemed so awkward.. told hani about it... and she think it's so diaoz... argh! whatever! haha... now hani has to think of a solution for me, and i have to think of a solution for her... yey! how great.
haiz.. no bridge... i'm a bit sian to play contract bridge... so i guess no bridge for me today. think tiffy and ah pau are goners le! i dont think tiffy can survive one day without bridge lor... diaoz... it's all sok and my fault lahz... for introducing the game.. haha.. even that queen crow is obssessed with it lor.. not to forget our king crow.. =X haha..
okok... better get back to studying statz... considering whether to go for tomorrow's statz extra lecture... dont really feel like going for it... dont know leyz... if it's only going through the questions, than i'll just take from pau and marked mine... dont think it'll make a difference... haiz... how i wish we're having accounting tomorrow instead... sianz..
Monday, September 27, 2004
hm... *yawnz* i'm sleepy already... maybe i should just go and sleep early today... after all, this is the only day that i'm not working =)
hm.. cant make it for accounting tomorrow.. haiz.. have to go for tuition in the afternoon, so got to skip that extra lesson... shall ask pau and tiffy about it after that. hm... got to start revising for my statz and accounting.. no to forget that i have to read up on OB on my own.. rather depend on myself then on jayarani... haiz...
haha... i cant remember when was the last time that i did not doze off during statz lecture. haha.. well, today i didnt k! *so proud* hahah... diaoz.. dont know why, but was super awake today... and was really in the mood to study... in fact, i did my statz past papers till early this morning about 5:30am before going to bed lor.. i want to try and finish as much as possible... haiz... i think he needs to give more papers, i feel that it's just not enough. anyway, pretty stuck with all the question 3, a bit confused between using Z distribution and T distribution. haiz... better go search for some answers... =(
hm... ok... think i should go revise accounting after this... yey!! haiz... i need to study...
jia you! jia you! jia you!
hey hey kor!!!
happy 21st birthday oh!!!
hahha... hope ur maturity balance with your age hor...
hahaah... hope that things will always go smoothly for you... =)
dearest mimi...
happy 19th birthday =)
you might be so far away...
but i've not forgotten this special day of yours.. =)
may all your dreams come true ya... take care.. *hugz*
hey doo doo!
happy birthday ah!!
fortunately for you... i'm only able to wish you through sms and online..
haha.. if not, you'll be getting black and blue presents... =P
haha... take care oh... =)
*yawnz* i'm really tired today... afterall, i stood for 3 hrs 45 mins at the bus stop today =(
oh... i forget to mention that i got to know some really nice colleagues yesterday =) raga and vicnes. haiz... i felt myself surrounded by more and more non-chinese... especially indian guys... there are so many indian colleagues in night safari that it's a bit scary sometimes.. haha.. well, none that i have any romantic feelings about. indians, nah.... he was the first, and the last. no more! =P
hm.. i think so many of us are really addicted to the yi tian tu long ji that is showing on tv currently. haha... finished watching 40 episodes in about 2 days to be more exact.. haha.. quite power rite? =X haha... now, i'm looking for zhao min's pictures online... hehe... and that sid is totally crazy about her lor... can just sms me telling me that he thinks she's cute... -_-" how diaoz!!
hm... ok.. got to cut this entry short.. since some woman specifically asked me to read her blog and leave comments... shall go see what i can help...
Sunday, September 26, 2004
=) just reached home like 10 minutes ago and it's like 3:15 in the morning now. thanx to racheal that i am able to reach home at this time, if not, i think it'll take me ages to get home =)
ok... today was a bit boring, cos i was asked to do show ushering... so apart from the show times, the job is pretty boring.. hehehe... the thing that brightened up the whole time was that there were so many caucasians today that i was a bit blur... hahah.. there were just too many of them.. there was this group of about 15 whom were all around my age... from some school or something, didnt check out where they are from, but they were wearing this shirt called 'titans'. not to forget that there was this group of 100, whose age ranged from i think junior school to the teachers that were with them... a lot of cuties among these group too =) well... oh.. not to forget that they are all RUGGERS, here for only 2 days because of a tournament. they are from some international school from thailand. =) lalal... nice people...
hm... i met this newlywed couple from Virginia, USA. they are really nice people and they only had praises for locals. they said that everywhere they go, people are really nice to them and they feel so welcomed =) anyway, they were so interested in our local information that we sort of got carried away talking about it =X anyway, hope to see them again =) though i seriously doubt so..
well, i went for the safari party with my new colleagues =) it was hilarious, 'no thanx' to BJ. he simply 'sux'... haha... it's too obscene, too explicit.. haha.. but well, he cracked everyone up =X as expected, racheal got the 'safari's broadcast award'. they had some stupid games like asking 7 girls to go up and blow the condom like a balloon... ya... they call it 'the blowjob'. -_-" also had this game that you had to simply follow whatever you are told to do... and so they made people had their nose touch another's and kiss someone's butt which they really did so... all were prepared and definitely gamed for it... how cool!! someone was kissing naren's (big boss) butt, and cos he is a really tall guy, that girl hardly had to bend down for the task. this guy name azzaris or something was kissing.. hm... what's her name... oh i forgot, but she's damn chio anyway... yupz... he was kissing her butt, the envy of so many guys that were around =P
i just cant keep my attention on BJ...
my eyes just had to stray... haiz..
i know it's not going to be good...
whenever i find them landing on the same person..
again and again.. =(
shucks!!! oh pls... not him!!!
he's too charming..
he's too nice...
he's too good-looking..
argh!!!
crap!
anyway, it didnt came as a surprise to me when he won the 'safari sex god'.
i mean, doesnt the result shows that
there a lot of people out there who simply agrees with me that he's hot?
even racheal thinks so..
since she was asking me about him when we were on our way home..
for all the times that i wish for someone new to have a crush on..
cos life's a bit boring without one to woo and ah about..
now, i hope it doesnt happen at all...
argh!!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
haiz...
how i miss lina.. =(
nananananaanananananannanaanana!!!
i miss you oh....
Friday, September 24, 2004
*yawnz* i'm finally on time for my morning class after a loooooong loooooong while... actually, i cant remember when was the last time that i was so punctual for morning class.. too lazy.. =X
haiz... had to do carpark duty with daya yesterday... and when 2 idiots were super tired and it was super boring, there's nothing to do, but just goofed, danced and sing around... =X haha... carpark marshals and we treat as if the carpark is ours =P hahah... it's really quite fun... =) but i dont think i would want to do it again... i cant stand breathing in all those exhaust fumes.. poor daya has to do it again today =X hahaha... well, but she sabo-ed me to do bus-stop duty next thurs.. oh... -damn-
hm.. dont know why but was thinking about lina on my way to safari... haiz.. missed that lame girl with her cabbage hair =) hm... wonder how she's been doing leyz... emailed her to her old email add and she didnt reply, so i got another email add from lixin =) hope this time, that lagger will do something about the email...lalal... her birthday's coming soon... dont know what to give her also... but this also means that i have to save money so that i can send her birthday gift over... hm...
I WANNA GO TO JAY CHOU'S CONCERT!!! hm... it's not that i'm a big fan of his... i just wanna go watch leyz... ARGH!!!!!
Thursday, September 23, 2004
stupid xuan!! stupid xuan!!!
hmrpf!!!
sometimes, i really feel like murdering that woman...
she's so IRRESPONSIBLE lor...
she asked you to call her in the middle of the night to talk..
and then she'll make you laugh with her corniness..
together with my eager participation of lameness and crappiness..
kept me awake for a full hour...
with non-stop of laughters and lameness...
and then...
after she's done with everything...
she'll be in her usual mood...
being a lousy pok...
getting sleepy..
and left you to die fully awake!!!!
so irritating!!!!
SUSAN TAN XUAN XUAN!!!
I DONT LIKE YOU!!!
hmrpf!! =P
anyway, i'll bear in mind our plan at the age of 25 years old ya... =) heheh... sorry that i forgot about it... i think i might not need that plan lahz... as for you, you better think of where you wanna go horz... cos with your usual style of handling things... i'm afraid that you'll just have to get the giraffes in the zoo... =P hmrpf!!
anyway woman... thanx for brightening up my life at such an ungodly hour and the leave me to die.. hmrpf!!!!! =P *hugz*
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
haha... havent had such a good laugh for sooooooo long.... hahaha... all thanx to xuan =) hehe...
seriously, i feel like murdering her just now.. ok to think about it now, i feel a bit stupid... hm.. shouldnt have told her that i'll organise the chalet, now there's no turning back =( felt that she had used reverse psychology on me to 'trick' me into organising this year's chalet... haiz.... -dumb-
ok... hey 4/1 peepz, check your email for yahoo's updates hor... dont make me call all of you one by one, i think i'll most probably just scream... -_-" cos it's frustrating... now i know how qiujie feels.. =(
lalala... but anyway... thanx xuan... hahaha.. you brighten up my night
have been watching yi tian tu long ji in the night.... haiz... watched from the night be fore yesterday till yesterday morning until i feel so sick... haiz... couldnt even go for tuition =(
well, have to go for tuition later... to make up for yesterday, think i'll just watched the show at a moderate pace.. but i feel like finishing it sooner leyz... or should i say as soon as possible, so that i can fully concentrate when i'm studying. though i can study as i watched television, it's like something that i've been doing since young, but when it comes to drama serials like this, there is definitely a certain degree of distraction. haiz... tried to do statz the other day, wanted to finish up everything, cos i've not been really doing those past year papers' questions... but i was so engrossed in watching the show that i forgot completely about it... =( *guilty*
hm... never mind... shall study harder.... i need to get to where i want.... i still remember hor... trying to work hard although you xin li bu zhu lahz... haiz... never mind... nonetheless, i still remember what you said... =)
hey pau...
jia you ya....
more assignments to go...
more exams to come... O_o
=) *hugz*
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
haiz.... sucks sucks sucks!! what a grade... haiz...
fine... fine...
shall just work harder...
Monday, September 20, 2004
hm... cant believe myself... i'm actually revising my accounting... what to do... exams are approaching real soon, and i cant afford not to study for it at all... i suck at it manz! haiz...
anyway.... today was quite a hilarious day... hahah... as usual, kelvin was the king crow and weilin was the queen crow. anyway, sok gave kelvin a new name... quite cool, really!! Sebestian Kelvin Crow!! hahah... should have seen the look on kelv's face... haha... it was really funny!! after statz lecture, we went to the student lounge to play table soccer... haha.. it was really cool!! won most of my games... except the one with sok i think... haha.. no chemistry when it comes to table soccer -_-"
played a game of pool too... well, weilin and i lost lahz... but never mind... hahaha... we tried our best... we'll try harder next time.. hmrpf!!!! =P
*thoughts drifted* exams are coming....
well, my piano's exams coming soon too... mdm renee said that i've improved especially technique wise... well, i hope that this improvement will continue... then i might just have the chance to make it... haiz.... hopeless.
ok... think i better get myself offline asap... and get myself back to my notes....
fleeting memories...
i didnt even remember anything..
until i recalled him staying around..
the gullible things that people can do..
out of curiosity...
it used to haunt me...
but not now..
different memories of that place..
but one pales in comparison to the other..
one marks the ending...
while the other marks a beginning..
fleeting memories...
gone with the wind...
"I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you"
- The Reason by Hoobastank
a million things to say...
through the eyes,
through the expressions on my face,
through the actions,
through the gestures,
but never through the words..
a millions things needed to be done..
tried as i might,
it just doesnt seem enough..
a million things that i tried to understand..
but it just never seems to get to me..
it twines itself together..
forms a big question mark..
thrown back at me..
leaves me wondering once again..
sighz.
utterly defeated
by fate.
the cruel joke of fate.
by destiny.
the way it always seems to be.
it's 3:01 in the morning now.. managed to go through 3 of my lecture notes for accounting.. it might seem nothing much, since the notes are just a few pages, but it's just so hard to remember all the things. -sighz- even if i can remember, i'm still unsure of when to use them and how to use them... this is so tough!
exams coming... -dead- felt that i'm so far behind my work... i need to catch up with all my modules fast.. if not, i'll really be dead when the exams come.. =(
i saw him today.. oopz.. or was it yesterday? argh... cant really remember... well, not as though it matters a lot lahz... hm... a bit disappointing though... haiz... never mind lahz... just look is enough...
sometimes... i think of you...
remember the smiles on your face...
remember the sparkle of your eyes..
sometimes... just sometimes..
i hope i'll forget you soon..
well, just stay in my dreams..
and dont ever get out ya..
cos i can only want you in my dreams.. =)
hm... i cant wait for hani to finish her 6 weeks of training and join us.. haha.. then i'll really have a companion then =)))) hahaha... got to know patricia a bit better on friday when we were doing show ushering together =) haha.. told her about how hani greets us and she cant wait to see how hani looks like. oopz! better not let hani knows about this, if not, she'll just murder me =X
oh well... better finish another set of notes... then i'll be able to go get some sleep and hopefully, i'll be able to wake up on time to go to school... =)
Sunday, September 19, 2004
havent been online for the past 2 days or so i think... just too tired and too busy to come online... i dont think the job is tiring, i just think that the travelling drains all my energy, but still, i love working there... so it's ok.
haha... finally saw that girl that i wanted to know for ages... haha... shang tyng.. what a coincidence! got to know her through our DISC profiling class the other time, and both of us were the only ones in the whole class of 25 who has a I personality... and she's actually working at NS too =) haha... recognised her for her name... cos of the special spelling of it that she kept reminding me the other time =)
hm... saw this 2 really cute caucasians today... lalal... brighten up my day a bit, cos i was feeling a bit rotten when i sort of corked up my duties ah... i've not done queue ushering before, and there were so many people today... didnt really know what to do, so in the end, there was a small jam... even though i know that it's not really my fault too, cos the tour guide was being difficult, but i still felt quite bad... luckily, some of the tourists saw it and they just smile and told me that it's ok.
from the corners of my eyes...
catching a glimpse of you..
just a dumb feeling..
you are beyond my reach..
and yet, i just cant help hoping...
nah.... completely out of reach.
completely impossible..
you shall just be my dream =)
Friday, September 17, 2004
Ah!!!!!
my surprise!!!
or should i say shock??!!!!
oooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
MICH MICH MICH!!!!
how did you know him??!!!
oh my!!!!! oh gosh!!!
mich!!!!!!!!!!
now, i'm soooooooo
JEALOUS!!!!
mich!! how did you know him?
oh gosh!
i've been trying to know him since dont know when lor..
and yet, you know him!!!
and he was once our...
"i will follow him..."
argh!!!!
read his blog and saw mich's note on his tagboard.
-jaw dropped-
i am just so J-E-A-L-O-U-S!!!
i used to go gaga over him day and night..
i think sok would have gladly stuff a piece of rag into my mouth...
ehehehe...
though he seems like the jerky type..
but still...
ARGH!!
he's still a cutie!!!
MICH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*shouts out loud*
Blessed Union Of Souls - Light In Your Eyes
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our 'I love you's' were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
sometimes i wonder about you...
sometimes you just popped into my mind...
but...
you are out of limits..
beyond my reach..
just too far away..
just not for me..
nah... doubt you even notice me..
you are just another..
what do they call it?
-crush-
Thursday, September 16, 2004
yupz... i'm sooooooooo sleepy now... *yawnz*
oh... first things first...
hey dearie Phill!
Happy 18th birthday!
hm... have known you for almost 5 years...
hahah... well.. i still remember your dreamz.. no worries..
lala... hope that it'll come true one day =)
*hugz*
time just seems to pass so quickly when you are working... *yawnz* hm... it's really not that bad.. haha.. anyway, get to know more and more about my colleagues, and they are really nice and friendly people =) anyway, just when i thought that i could escape introductions to the crew, today's briefing just had to be conducted by Naren =( see that i have an "interesting name", and noticed that i'm new, he made me do another round of introduction ('another' is because i've already done 2 introductions when i came for my first and second interview -.-). though everyone made him a terror, i think he's not that bad... at least, he appears quite friendly to me =) the night supervisers are quite nice too... at least jonathan and joe are quite nice people... i havent had the chance to talk to the other 2 yet... but well, think they should be quite nice lahz... auntie racheal is definitely nice... since she'll be giving me a ride home after the safari party!! =P yey! hahaha... she's sooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!!!
haiz... i'm trying to find someone to swop saturdays with me... so that i dont have to burn away both sats... but it just seems like everyone is busy... and a lot of people are trying to get rid of this saturday... haiz.. no luck... so will just have to work then =(
well.... feel so weird... haiz... never mind...
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
hm... just reached home not long ago... sooooo super tired... not because of much things just the fact that i didnt sleep much yesterday =( i dont know why, i just couldnt get to sleep... ended up doing my work and other things... =(
had to go to the zo0 in the morning as it was part of my training... woke up only at 8:15 and i know that i was going to be late... so no choice, but to take a cab there =( and it bloody hell cost me $13.20... haiz... paul and shahiq teased me the whole day about that $13.20 lor... so kns! anyway. it was really a stupid trip lor... there's nothing much to see... and the 5 of us ended up in the zoo for only an hour... we waited for iswan for an hour, and then just walked around for another hour... it was plain BORING! so irritating! haiz... wasted my time and money...
went to sp after that and gave lilian a surprise... heard that she was feeling stress lately... so ya lor.. haha.. bought her a flower and wrote her something =) haha... thanx shang... all thanx to shang that we managed to make it a surprise... hahaa.... cos he was the one who called her down to the cafe so that i dont need to do it personally... yupz! went to look for ben ben and ky too... aiyoz... the 2 of them, really nothing to say lor... prelims le... still selling banana stuffs there... hm... anyway, their banana freeze was not bad =) hahaha... but it doesnt look as good though =X haha... but seriously, it's not bad =) saw a few friends there... and xunwei's friend was there too... dont really know her name, can only recognise her whenever i see her... anyway, saw liangkai too.. haha... as usual, suan him a bit lahz... he looks a bit different to me... maybe it's cos of the contacts... so i made a comment like.. "liangkai bian yi dian hao kan le.." haha... and xunwei just had to say... "huh? wo bu dong liangkai hui bian hao kan de..." -.- how diaoz... hahaha...
had to rush back to night safari to work after that... haiz... tiring... but no choice also... it's not a dread lahz.. in fact, i enjoy working there.. so it's quite ok...
ok lahz... have to go sleep le... haiz... need to go do ob project tomorrow... and after that, go to work...
ooh... before i forget...
hey lengzai...
happy birthday! haha..
grow up!
may all ur dreams come true...
and stay happy always =)
*hugz*
if you never know how much i've disliked you...
then get it into your thick skull now...
i dont like you,
AT ALL!!!
so if you dont mind..
fucking hell get out of my life!
you dont need me..
and seriously,
I DEFINITELY DONT NEED YOU.
just leave me alone!
5:37 in the morning...
dont ask me why i'm here...
haiz.. i just cant get to sleep..
how sad...
have to make my way to the zoo later as part of my training...
damn... it'll be another tiring day...
going to sp after that to try home-made banana ice-cream..
yesh.. hope it doesnt give me tummyache =X
my second day at work yesterday..
and i really like it =)
saw this really cute caucasian...
hahaha... and there's this japanese that's so adorable...
oh well... the nice thing about working in night safari..
hahaha... can continue with my usual hobby...
friendly colleagues...
but some of them still looked a bit fierce though..
hm...working my butt off...
will be working everyday for this week...
not really complaining...
cos i kind of like going to work...
hm... get my mind off things...
make time passed faster...
and make my life so much easier...
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
thinking about the msn conversation with izzy the other day...
hm.. dont know why,
it just wouldnt go away.
nah.. it's just my subconscious playing tricks on me again...
was thinking about the question again and again,
and sometimes, the truth seriously hurts too much.
i'd rather just let it passed me by,
then knowing the answer,
deep in my heart.
some answers are not worth seeking,
just pretend that they dont exist though it might be hard.
hm... all things aside...
hahaha... saw kelv's new hairstyle today...
haha... it definitely looks better then the previous one..
but the minute he started talking...
everything just goes back to normal.. =X
haha.... it was funny lahz...
oh well... shall try to be nice to him...
before i end up lovjng him too much.
=P muahahahhaa....
Sid: "Diao. Y find work until there lo? Wan get close 2 the animals uh?? 2 ur west got a monkey le , to ur north got a sadist tasmania devil *me*
muahaha... sid is super diaoz... this sms from him really got me burst out laughing... haha... lala...
Monday, September 13, 2004
6 'early' birds...
scurrying here and there..
waiting to be printed..
waiting to get burned..
as times passed...
nearing that finishing line..
sprinting for that deadline...
chaos..
total madness...
bonkers..
-exhausted-
忘了
把你忘记该不该 也许重新找个人来爱
曾经坚持永远的期待
不再 已丢掉的时间 谁会管
也许活着是一种悲哀 有些事情就是看不开
世上是否真的有好聚好散
只是找个借口面对未来
是否忘了爱过 忘了孤单
再忘了想 再忘了忘
一直活在现在 才能避免自己再度受伤害
忘了自由 忘了依赖
再忘了想 再 忘了忘
心专注你之外 才能阻止你在我心中放遗憾
是谁将爱分开 一半是我 一半由你安排
心在中间祈盼 只能空等待 等你靠过来
Friday, September 10, 2004
if i'll ever love you...
i'll love you with all my heart...
so completely that you wont even feel the presence of anyone else in that same place..
if i'll ever love you...
i'll never made promises that i wouldnt keep...
for i'll never wanna disappoint you...
if i'll ever love you...
i'll never lie..
cos i wouldnt want you to do the same to me...
if i'll ever love you...
i'll hold you in my arms and tell you the same old phrase everyday..
i would rather be naggy then let you doubt my feelings even for a day..
if i'll ever love you...
i would hold you tight...
and let you feel, apart from just hearing them...
but if you ever stop loving me...
i would smile once more...
and let you go...
i would look at you carefully for the last time...
for it'll be completely different between us the next time i see you...
i would tell you that i love you...
for i wouldnt want to live with that regret of not telling you how much i love you...
well, that is...
if i'll ever love you...
listening to: Purest of Pain - Son by Four
went to tiffy's place today... i surprised myself by waking up at 11 today. well, consider the fact that i slept at 5:30 in the morning... it's really not easy. i didnt really slack a lot, set up my laptop and i just began keying in all my datas, trying to finish my accounting as fast as possible. anyway, i feel so proud of myself, cos i managed to do the cashflow statement all by myself =)
should be printing out my accounting and stuffs to hand in tomorrow, but i think i shall just leave them till tomorrow... simply in no mood to do anything.. just when jem is so hyped and chirpy, i'm feeling so down and lost for words. haiz... was sid already in a bad mood or was it cos i was in a bad mood?
talking to ming on msn now... for now, i feel so suppressed. i feel as though that there are so much things that i want to say... and yet, i have no outlet to express them. even blogging doesnt seem to help much lately. everyone's so busy with their lives... people in uni are busy coping with their schoolwork, mugging for tests.. people in poly are busy with their upcoming tests... people in ns seldom have the time to sit down and just talk... i still dont feel comfortable talking to my new friends about everything and anything... maybe talking to ming is the best? cos she's so far away that i kinda feel safe talking to her. even her blurness can be well-maintained when she's so far away... not afraid that she'll just blurt out the wrong things accidentally. well, how i miss that blur queen... haiz... was trying to find the right words to tell izzy about things... but i just couldnt form the right words... gave up trying... when you tried too hard, everything just seems so pointless already.
miss the carefree days when you dont need to worry about anything. miss the carefree days when problems just seemed so far away to even see them or feel them.
read some blogs and got this feeling that something about this world is not right. too many people sound too depressed... too many people arent happy about life... call us whiners or greedy fellows that are just not happy with life, too many dissatisfaction or unhappiness, too many disappointments and worries... whatever it is.. but isnt being happy the most important thing?
saw a shocking picture from friendster and hope that it's not 1 that's taken of her. it's scary... it's heart-wrenching... guess i'll never get to know... but maybe i dont wanna know either... sometimes, it can be too painful to know the truth... cheery always... but why that?
hey mimi...
thanx so much for listening to me..
you are so far away... and yet somehow, it just seems as though you are just right beside me.
haiz.. anyway, i'm down again... 'fallen' once more... haiz... my good health and proper diet didnt even last for a week... haiz... puke like nobody's business after dinner today... so sad... haiz... have to watch my diet again... =(
Thursday, September 09, 2004
listening to: Dan Xiao Gui - Gigi Leung
damn! wrote an entry and i dont know what i pressed, and it's all gone. now i have to rewrite everything. shucks!
anyway... i've just finished watching '13 going on 30'. =) like finally lorz.... wanted to catch it in the cinemas, but i dont have the time... so yupz.. resort to downloading it online. =P i feel so happy for jenna... hahha... well, jenna and matt looks really adorable together =)
as usual, movies are always thoughts-provoking for me. watching romance movies or reading romance just made me feel like falling in love sometimes... haha... but too bad, i just cant find anyone to fit into my weeny brain nowadays, there's just no one around whom i'm attracted to. =( well, i'm not really complaining lahz... since i'm enjoying my life now... i can just do whatever i want and have no obligations or need to answer to anyone. yepz... no obligations, no strings attached is really not bad =)
hm... yey! just finish downloading 'mean girls', 'a cinderella story' and 'raising helen', i think i'll be able to watch them later... since i'm almost done for my accounting, at least the calculations are cleared, just left the answering and reasoning, which shouldnt be too difficult, i should be able to clear them in tiffy's house later =) so... i'll be able to continue watching my movies =) i'm also trying to download gothika now =)
i think that i'm too easily satisfied, amused or pacified lately =P haha... i also dont know why... but it just seemed so. it doesnt take much to put a smile on my face... especially when bb and cc came across my mind =P hahaha... they are just so funny... in a positive way lahz... since they made me so happy... haha =P lalal... well, poor bb kana from sok and i just now for being ungrateful... send him message he also wanna complain so much... hmrpf!! anyway, it just seems to me that bb and cc are taking turns sending me messages on alternate nights. hahah... ok.. i'm not being ungrateful lorz.. i'm definitely not complaining lor.. haha.. they are just so sweet and nice =) heh! =X never mind...
hm... i can wait for friday to come.. =) oh... and saturday too... hope that gan wouldnt kana guard duty again, then all of us can play badminton. if not, it'll be like last week... nothing to do =( anyway, it just shouldnt be lahz... cos steve already booked the court. and that also means that i'll be going back for co... since we'll be playing at yuhua cc. -.- hm... have this feeling that i'll have a lot of questions to answer... haiz... *prays hard* oh... and hope that boh steve and gan can ton ah... hahaha... cos i already got the GREENLIGHT le!! hm... i think since now that my mum is more lax with me... i always try to ton outside whenever i can. muahahaha... what to do.. deprived kid. =X
okok... better go and sleep le... later cant wake up in time to go tiffy's house...
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
i got this from the 13 going on 30 webbie... =)
Taurus April 21 - May 21
Symbol: The BullSign Style: Earth
Color of Choice: Pink
Personality Plus: Patient, reliable, warm-hearted, determined, always supportive of your friends.
The Downside: Jealous, greedy, possessive, self-indulgent, resistant to change.
Relationship Advice: True to your bullish nature, you’re a loyal and devoted girlfriend, and you expect the same thing from your sweetie. That’s why you need to trust your crush completely before committing. Once you fall in love, you fall hard, and it’s always for the long term.
Most Compatible With: Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces
and yesh... dearest sok... for your infomation... taureans are no longer most compatible with SCORPIO! haha... in fact... SCORPIO is now most compatible with Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, PISCES. muahahahhhahaa.... =P
listening to: Qi Li Xiang - Jay Chou
generally, a good day =)
slept really late last night, cos i was half attempting to start on my accounting.. hehe! well, i managed to finish most of the financial performance and position, er... with tiffy's help (her example), of cos! =P well, at least i managed to understand most of it, except the accrued wages part... haiz... well, damn the logic, just memorise it!
i managed to woke up at 9:30 this morning to give tuition. almost fainted when i heard my p4 kid's results. felt a bit cheated. i didnt know his results were THAT terrible when i first took him. i mean... i didnt expect him to be fantastic, cos my first encounter with him already tells me that he's very weak in his english... and that sums it all. but i didnt know he is that BAD with his maths and science. anyway... got to know his standard through this common test, and realise that there is so much that i have to do with him. and he's bloody hell having his streaming exams in 6 weeks. so does his mum really expect me to perform a miracle on her kid? to raise borderline marks for his english to a maybe acceptable 70 or something? and raise his super JIA LAT maths of 33 marks to a 75? ya... and his science too.... haiz... cant believe anyone can ever fail maths in primary school with such bad grades.. and he failed his science too... haiz.. he's like a challenge to me now... but i think after the whole ordeal, i'll simply collapse in exhaustion.
took a cab to pau's house today... cos i really want to finish up my biz computing... and ya... do a bit more for my accounting.. well, went there and i spent a hell lot of time doing computing... kaoz... it took me quite some time to understand the 5 'IFs' formula... and then spend a even greater amount of time just tryin to spot the mistake in the formula. just when i thought i was finally done... i realised that there's mistake in pau's formula... so in the end, kelv and my assignment also have to make amendments. but when the bloody formula is so bloody long, it's so difficult trying to spot the mistake. after i managed to cultivate my patience since dont know when.. i spotted the mistake!!! ahhahaha... was sooooo duper happy! hahaha... when i was typing, kelvin and pau were looking at me with those anticipated look on their faces... so funny.. and super stress... hahaha..
i think my diet is back to normal... ate quite a lot of things in pau's house today =) hm... 2 plates of noodles... and 2 bowls of sweet tapioca soup... hahah... yey!! finally feeling healthy again =P lalala... ok.. think i better get back to my accounts... aim to finish it on by thurs... than not so last minute again... hehe! =)
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
hm... didnt went for ob lecture today... just couldnt wake up... well, what to do... slept at almost 5 in the morning... hm.. anyway, i doubt i miss out much since pau and company pon that lecture. well, actually wanted to join in during break.. but had a dream that i forgot to bring all mt statz notes to school... so in the end, i decided to take my own sweet time and make sure that i brought everything before i left my house.
haiz... learnt confidence interval during statz lecture all over again. was a bit confused about the things he said... it seems to make perfect sense to him.. but no logic to me. shucks! think i'll have to go read about it again... and rationalised on my own. learnt something new today... not that i like it... something about this T distribution table... so confusing.. dont even know how to check it up... only know how to calculate and write it down.. diaoz... haiz..
haha...oh... gan went to look for sok and i today at SIM. hahah... aiya.. he not that good lahz.. he passed by... so just dropped by to say hi lorz... haha... and he played bridge with the usual SIM people... hahah... so fun! think the fr-enz were slightly amused by gan and i ah... hahaha.... maybe they havent really seen this side of me yet... i mean, the ultimate suaning me.. haha... oh.. got to know 1 more friend today called JOHN. no wonder sok always complain about him... he's such a TOOT!!! hahahaha... suan him till so shuang today... who ask him to say the wrong thing!!! hmrpf! and i got a shifu.. haha.. victor! his accounts = power. i know he's trying his best to teach me... and i'm also trying my best to understand... hope that i can put whatever he had said to good use =)
hm... dont know why... but kazaalite is not working in my laptop... so had to switch to limewire... not bad too... but kazaalite seems more user friendly though.. =) haiz... ok... shall CHASE sid offline now... and than i'll go and start on my accounting too!!! =)
Monday, September 06, 2004
listening to: What If - Kate Winslet
Here i stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go awayI
n my head i keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well i tried
But i had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if i had never let you go
Would you be the man i used to know
If i'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But i guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joyS
ome to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if i said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that i'd never left your side
What if i had never let you go
Would you be the man i used to know
If i'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But i guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If i could take you back would you still be mine'
cos i tried
But i had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if i had never let you go
Would you be the man i used to know
What if i had never walked away'cos i still love you more than i can say
If i'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But i guess we'll never know
We'll never know
just so coincidentally that the player kept playing this song... found the lyrics really meaningful... hm... well, it's a nice song...
woke up early today to go for tuition... after putting in so much effort, i'm glad that her maths has improved by a big margin... left her to study english on her own... cos her english is so much better then her maths by a very big difference, in the end, she failed her english... -.- and it's a bit ridiculous the way she failed it. she got the answers for her comprehension, just that she doesnt know how to phrase it in the way to answer the questions, so in the end, she got a BIG FAT ZERO for that section. well, just have to get her more specimen papers, so that she can practice her comprehension. think i'll go to popular tomorrow to get maths papers for my p4 kid, and english papers for my p1 kid. hm.. sort of regret rejecting the p3 and p5 kids when the tuition agency called me today... haiz... it could have bring in more income.. haiz... but i dont think i have anymore time for tuition if i'm going to start working in night safari... well, just hope that i get the job for night safari... it's actually quite fun working there i think... =)
went for my second training today... and as usual, dinner was provided... the big bongo burger that can just be my only meal for the whole day. the burger is just sooooo huge! anyway, if i were to work there, i already know what's gonna be my motivation... APART from the rather good salary and plenty of caucasians... hahhaa... lalala...
hm.... got to go for the last training session on wed... then after that i'll have 2 days of attachment training... hm.. then immediately after that, i'll have to sit for a written test which i have to score at least 85 marks to get myself employed. oh manz!! why does it sound worse than those exams?? haiz... anyway, i'll just pray hard for it... dont think it's that hard to remember... apart from the one that i need to remember all the animals in each of the trails... and some policy that i have to memorise word for word... =( well, shall see how everything goes... haha... made a few friends there... hahaha... and so far, i've not get to train together with hani... maybe we can meet up and go for the zoo trip together.. =) hahhaa.... miss that crazy woman who talks non-stop throughout our whole journey to and from the night safari.. =)
i want my big mouths' chalet horz!!!! haiz.... since all the guys are in ns... does it mean that this year the girls will have to do everything? haiz.. does it mean i have to go and book the chalet?? QIUJIE!!! now i realise how much i love you......... =P
Sunday, September 05, 2004
yeyeyeyyeyyy!!! i'm so happy now!!!
ahaha... ok... first, i must say a BIG BIG THANK YOU to yanjie... hhahha... all thanks to him that i dont need to keep listening to the songs to learn how to play them... got the webbie and programme from him and he taught me how to download them and stuffs... yey!! now i have the scores to the 4 songs that i want to learn of jay chou's =)))) yey!! hahha... and i also have maksim's claudine!! hahah! yeyeyye!!!
ok... shall have fun playing them tomorrow... before i go for work... =)
hey hey maria!!!! haha... i got miss you hor!!! =P
hm... went to the creative warehouse sales today... at first with sid, cos that unlucky boy has to go exchange his mp3 player... cos it cant even work... =P hm.. after that, met up with steve and darius then gav a bit later, to have dinner... hm... didnt play badminton today =( well.. no courts. hm.. steve booked the courts for next week already... hope the safari dont give me problems ah.. then i can go for co and then play badminton after that...=)
tried to psycho steve to go kbox... it's all his fault ah... dont know why... gav and i were just too gian.. ahha... sms izzy and asked her along... made her very gian too... in the end, all of us didnt go cos' steve cant make it... -.- hm... next time perhaps... which i dont know when next time will come...
trying very hard to do my biz computing ah... haiz... but i'm still stuck at the credit commission part... sianz. about to give up le lor.... so bloody difficult.. and i've not start my accounting yet... and it's supposed to due on friday... =( ok... got to finish everything by thursday... cos dont think i'll be free during the weekend... most probably, i'll have to work... =(
hm... i realise something... never see a friend online for quite some time... hahaha... haiz.. i dont know what happen... guess he's around, just not visible to me... well, it's ok... kinda expected it in a way... haiz... well, shall see what happens next... i wouldnt ask where you are... cos i know you, and know that there's no point in asking... oh well... till you appear again... take care...
hm... should just go and sleep soon... *yawnz* finally! one day with proper meals and i didnt puke!!! yey!!! hm... good start...
Saturday, September 04, 2004
well, finally got my laptop... after making arrangement with hani... think hani was in quite a foul mood too because of the last minute information and everything... really feel a bit apologetic.. sighz... well, will make it up to her when and if we get to work together...
finally got everything done... downloaded the microsoft office and stuffs... and connect to my modem and stuffs... so now i'm waiting to collect the reuter and everything will be done =)
think i've never been so hardworking... was trying to hard to complete my computing assignment... well, i'm still stuck... i just dont know how to go the chart thingy... guess i'll have to engage pau's help again... haiz... poor pau, always kana from me... anyway, have to do a lot of catching up for my accounting... what to do... had to skip today's lecture to go collect the laptop... if not, i dont know how long do i have to wait again... haiz...
hm... was sooooo tired today... my eyes can barely open... dont think that ming is not around and no one will complain that eyes are hurting k... haiz... my eyes were hurting for the most of today... can barely open them.. jia latz... anyway, i took a loooong nap when i reached home... from 18:30 to 21:30.. =X too tired... just couldnt get myself to wake up...
yey!!! i drank the fruit shakes today... again!! i drank 2 cups!! hahaha... not milkshake... no worries... hahah... today not that bad lahz... never puke... maybe i can start eating my usual portions... yey!
Friday, September 03, 2004
-sighz-
the only good thing that happened so far....
received a message from our dear mimi sia.... =)
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! dont think i've ever been in a more foul mood than this... what the FUCK! everything just go so wrong....
first thing in the morning only... min was late to meet, and in the end, i was almots late for class. fine. after that, min called me to tell me that the people actually sent out an email to hani but it bounce cos her inbox was full. what luck! and now, everything is just so hanging in mid-air. so when can i have the things done CORRECTLY AND PROPERLY?
trying to do biz computing now.. but i'm so GODDAMN FUCKING lost now! what the hell!!! that's it. i'm not doing it anymore. go to hell for all i care.
fuck.
the next person who steps on my tail is gonna get super blast by me.
get lost.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
another dramatic day...
i was so sick today that i couldnt even get up to go for my tuition in the morning... had to cancel it in the end. haiz... i cant believe myself, i slept for 12 whole hours today.... =( from 1 yesterday, till 1 this afternoon...
felt better in the late afternoon, so decided to go to jp to restring the rackets, and also to buy the cable needed for my modem. damn sportslink! their machine was spoilt.... ok... so i went down to je sports complex... that auntie todl me that i can only collect it on sunday.... diaoz... since i was already out, i'm determined to get it restring... so took a cab to queensway.. waited for 45 minutes, and it's finally done. took me another 1 hr 15 min before i finally get home... the moment i stepped into my house, and wanted to ask my mum to reinburst me, i realise that i had left the rackets in the bus. =( wah.... i simply panicked, grab my handphone, keys and wallet and rushed downstairs to take a cab and go after that bus.
i was almost in tears and was at the stage when i was just pulling my hair in frustration. =( bame it on my own forgetfulness!!! haiz.... well, i managed to catch the bus at TELOK BLANGAH!!! haiz.... all the way there... and the irritating thing was there were 2 143s. diaoz... i didnt know which it was.. luckily, 1 was driving a bit faster then the other, so there's some time to catch both bus. i board the first one, and didnt find what i want... my hopes fell a bit. then tried the second bus, which is more empty then the first, and yupz... saw my racket still in the same place!! it's there!!! i was soooo relieved and happy that i just burst into tears when i alighted. called steve immediately and told him that i managed to retreive the rackets.. and he was laughing all along... -.- so diaoz... seems like i was the only one worried for the rackets.. kns!
think i was really lucky to be able to get back the rackets... i didnt really think that it would still be there... cos it went such a long way... -sighz- ok... just soooooo happy to get it back... =)
hm..... ok... better go sleep early... starting work tomorrow =) heheh! so happy! yey!
listening to: shiosai - takuya kimura
2 of the more dramatic days that i've been through... sighz.
went back to pj yesterday.... hm... that mr yeo... kept disturbing me.... hahahah... i think it should be sok's HAPPIEST day lorz... cos there's finally someone who seems to be speaking up for her... helping her to get back at me. hmrpf!! hahah... anyway, told him about the 'maid' thingy in SIM... hahaha... and my teacher's day present for him was to help him threw away the holick can. blehaz! =P got to see me 'nightmare' yesterday too... and the minute i saw her approaching the piano where i was sitting with hong meng, i ran. hahah.. seemed to have shock the people around me when i suddenly just stopped playing and ran away. =X was trying out my new songs on the piano when these 3 girls came over and started treating my like a jukebox -.- so diaoz.. the chun chun also... wanted me to learn how to play wai po... diaoz... anyway, i managed to learn half of it le.. shall complete it another day when i'm free.
went back to css with darius and hui ee in a cab... that darius kept rushing me to go back, and in the end, we all had to suffer from the looooooooooooooooooooong speech by that old woman } not a lot of people went back actually, but those who can made it were back. haha... saw doo doo after like a million years... and saw that video presentation that zhigao and lixin had made. haha.. sooooo cool! =) well, now the girls want to have a special performance for next yr's teacher's day to raise the standard a bit. =P well, hope that ching yee can persuade the rest of her group to go back and perform, then THAT will be something really worth watching =) anyway, xuan had already agree to take part in the dance if we are going to organise one... we want to make it a combine effort from the 2001 batch =) shall see how it goes... another year to go.... anyway, kianhong managed to go back too.. it was his company's anniversary or something... cant really remember...
hm.. after that, the few of us wanted to watch 13 going 30, but when we reached jp, the movie has already started, and xuan doesnt want to watch face, so we went shopping instead. i was getting a bit tired, so decided to join steve and john in matt's house maybe after the shopping, so that i can catch a nap or something. hm... but since gav was already at the interchange, might as well just go to matt's house with him.. if not, have to walk in alone, very sian one... hm... was listening to jay chou's zhi zhan zhi shang with him trying to figure out how to play the left-hand... so irritating.. something is just not right lahz.. ARGH!
haha... john and steve took turns to entertain me with their songs and singing in matt's house. hahaha... steve was ultra funny when he sang "when you said nothing at all" =P all of us just couldnt help it and burst out laughing. well... he was trying.... trying... went to steve's house after that cos he need to pack his things. wanted to go to the c c earlier to see if we can book another hour, but we were too late. haiz.... rot in the market cos steve and gav were hungry and needed to eat, then after that went to the c c to rot for almost another hour... anyway, saw aihui there... that xiao zabor.. haha... she was playing badminton with her friends too =)
well, john brought along a friend and his brother.. hahah.. i think his friend and his brother look more like brothers... =X anyway, there were 7 of us with only 1 court... not that great.. but ok lahz.. anyway, it's a bit stress to play also... cos the 'B' division boys of pioneer sec were just training right beside our court... looking at them doing the drills and circuits really made me miss the old days.... sighz... only got to really sweat during the last 15 minutes... cos was playing a bit with gav... hm.. i think he improved liaoz.. even steve said so... hahha... i think we, the old ones have to buck up liaoz... but i think my smash also getting it back...hm... hope it'll make a difference =)
the DRAMA of the day: we were talking to the coffee shop nearby when i saw this COCKROACH on the wall. grab the sleeve of the person right beside me and positioned him to my right. unfortunately, that person is gav and he, of all people, knowing that i'm SUPER afraid of cockroach, just have to go and disturb it... already told him that it can fly... sometimes, i cant believe myself, i'm such an expert on cockroaches that one look at it, i can know whether they can fly or not... -sighz- anyway, that cockroach starting flying.. and it scare the hell out of me, so i did what i do best.. S-C-R-E-A-M! and ya... later i did what i always do when this thing happened, CRY! kaoz... i was super frightened lorz.. when we sat at the coffee shop, i was in a total daze... =(
haiz... i think i didnt really get over it... cos after that, the ice milo that i drank didnt settle well in my stomach and i puke... =( haiz... it's bad... dont know why, food just doesnt seem to settle well in my stomach nowadays... =(
drama.... 1st day only lorz......
