Saturday, January 31, 2004
woo hoo!! 29th jan... big day siaz...
our giam and wei's bday! =)
hm... wonder who wei celebrate with =)
well, went back school to look for giam... rot there and slack there for a couple of hours before we proceed to jp. had a hard time deciding where to eat and end up in mac -_-
wah... it was supposed to be happy lahx... and i think giam really enjoyed herself lorx... she seemed to be oblivious to whatever is going on manz. kaoz.. haha... but well, it might just be a blessing in disguise.
felt myself heightening my awareness when i'm with the kxgs. sat there for 5 minutes, and i dragged kangde aside to ask him what happen. it's obvious that something's bothering him. haiz.. talking to him makes me realise that he's also a bit of those mcp kind... -sianz-
was talking to jj and sh. shred their masks into pieces and i almost got 'beaten' up lorx =P can see sh's frustration when he is already trying so hard to hide his fear and yet, i just tear his mask into pieces and said out whatever he's feeling. hahaha... he super cannot take it ahz... cos it's not the first time? =X jj asked me of my opinion of him and sarah... and i described sarah's character in details even though i didnt really have lots of interaction with her. hahaha.. jj's surprise came when he asked me what kind of bf i think he is... and i describe HIM. hahaha... and i know that my last sentence is especially true. =)
a group of 9, and 4 was having ms. kaoz... think xuan was like fainting trying to handle her brother.. and the other 3 were with me. tried to talk to them, to lighten up the atmosphere. 3 of them stand around me, and i can felt the intensity of the atmosphere lorx.. wah.. almost died from it. gave up trying. and it just send me in ms mood with them. =X
wah... realise that i was really short tempered when we were in liberty. i almost shouted at xuan, keyword -ALMOST, but i didnt. if i did, i know i'll be getting hell from her le.. hahah.. was trying super hard not to snap at anyone, and i'm glad my control is much better then in the past. if not, zc would have gotten hell from me... and he wasnt even doing anything wrong. he's just being the usual nice brother.
saw the symptoms coming. yes... had fever last night and i caught a cold after walking in the rain for 2 days. it's been quite some time since i last walked in the rain. can still remember the times when sok and i would just walk in the rain, enjoying the feel of it. then kicking the puddle of water. hahaha... well, that were the good old times... with THE REST. =)
remember xuan once told me... "Let not ur memories be the one that wreck u now. They shud be the ones who will offer u solace."
and yupz... that's wat i'm doing now... =)
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
really feel like working lorz...
dont know why also..
signed up with this tuition agency today...
hope they'll call me up soon..
then maybe i can start giving tuition..
haha..
guess teaching jj maths sort of spur me on...
haha...
really miss doing tys...
trying to figure out all the chem questions tt mr yong assigned us...
haha... can still remember that i used to be loggerheads w mr yong..
haah... but now,
well, it's more like friends le lorx..
by the way, think mr yong is so funny lorx.. he sms me today, and asked me what horoscope star am i. so diaoz.. haha... then he sort of like laughed when i said i'm a taurian.. haha. cos it sort of represents my temper and stubborness too? like a bull, he said. kns..! then he told me that it'll be a good year for me.. his exact words were... "bull star good this yr. guess u got 2 continue 2 be a jolly happy good BELL 4 many yrs 2 come!" diao diao.. lame rite? he really never fail to surprise me lorx... diao diao lorx... =)
btw... met up with a few of them for dinner today. sq, ky, jem, eunice, jasper and shuyin. didnt eat cos i wasnt really hungry but it is good enough that we can just sit together for a meal lorx =) hahah... then was teasing sq about the orientation speech that he made on stage.. haha.. if looks can kill, well, visit me in my grave liaox... hahah... he diao me all the way lorx! =X hahah.. miss his company greatly.. one fun person to talk to, to play with, to tease =X
something that someone said today made my day =) lalala... something simple, and yet, haha... very very sweet lorx.. =) lalala...yey!
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
read yan's blog..and i feel that this is a side of yan that you dont always get to see?cos to me, he's always the rational one, the realistic one. but now, even he is getting sentimental and nostalgic too. wow~ what a change. but i think it's really affecting him? haiz..
sometimes, it's just so hard to put everything behind your mind. it's difficult to not think about it anymore. maybe, i just didnt expect that a guy can be so... er... 'chi qing'?? dont know.. it's just rare ba...
and i dont really know what is going on w qq too.. haiz. should find a chance and talk talk le? her nick is weird... and her entries are even weirder.. haiz..
i'm so dead bored now.. haiz.. and wondering what to buy for the various people... kaoz...
wah.. the whole day has been a rush for me...
was rushing here and there lorx...
was supposed to meet xuan and giam in school for lunch at 2,
but i was late..
ok... i went to sign up for the spanish class...
and lessons should be commencing this wed.
taught jj a bit of maths...
and realise how much i miss doing all those questions..
it used to be a torture..
but now,
i simply missed it.
believe it or not,
i even miss trying to balance all the chemical equations..
ok.. i'm going crazy! haha!
then went back to pj for the musical rehearsal..
kaoz.. waited for an hour lorx..
and i took a cab back k...
cos i was afraid that i'll be late... -_-
hm.. yupz... saw shermaine in school..
hahah... miss that girl a bit...
theory class used to be really fun...
haha.. it's really bitchy lorx..
hahah... she's still as small size lorx.
and her bf is so tall.
talked to ky and jem a bit...
update a bit...
and i guess things are still ok between all of us...
LUCKILY.
i wouldnt want things to go wrong or this side also...
i'll probably faint lorx!
hm... btw..
thanx ky..
for brightening up my day..
with that one little star..
=)
was supposed to meet linda at 19:15 then go matthew's house.
but i was late.
hm... reached matt's house at about 20:00 =X
hahah... there were steve, lex and qihui too...
haha.. we had fun lorx...
ate pizza, played jing ku mi ma, played blackjack, sang songs..
hahaha... fun.
i think it would have been better if the other 2 can make it too?
i dont know...
well, maybe it would be.
*shrugs*
stupid steve... won about $22 lorx..
all of us lost,
and linda lost the most.. haha
reached home at around midnight...
kaoz.. ALMOST got into trouble... haha..
lalala. yey..!!
planning some excuse again..
think it'll be chalet again lahx...
so that i can go night cycling with the same ppl and more of them on sat night...
and yesh..
MAJOR GATHERING AT AIWEI'S HOUSE ON SUN!!!
i'll be really looking forward to that!!!!!
hahaha..
when i say.. MAJOR...
it means.. all my sec 2 classmates... some of my sec 4 clasmates..
her own classmates...
just basically EVERYONE that we know lahx! kaox.
it's gonna be real crowded..
there'll at least be around...
hm... 40??
woo hoo!! yeyeyeye!!!
wah.. the whole day has been a rush for me...
was rushing here and there lorx...
was supposed to meet xuan and giam in school for lunch at 2,
but i was late..
ok... i went to sign up for the spanish class...
and lessons should be commencing this wed.
taught jj a bit of maths...
and realise how much i miss doing all those questions..
it used to be a torture..
but now,
i simply missed it.
believe it or not,
i even miss trying to balance all the chemical equations..
ok.. i'm going crazy! haha!
then went back to pj for the musical rehearsal..
kaoz.. waited for an hour lorx..
and i took a cab back k...
cos i was afraid that i'll be late... -_-
hm.. yupz... saw shermaine in school..
hahah... miss that girl a bit...
theory class used to be really fun...
haha.. it's really bitchy lorx..
hahah... she's still as small size lorx.
and her bf is so tall.
talked to ky and jem a bit...
update a bit...
and i guess things are still ok between all of us...
LUCKILY.
i wouldnt want things to go wrong or this side also...
i'll probably faint lorx!
hm... btw..
thanx ky..
for brightening up my day..
with that one little star..
=)
was supposed to meet linda at 19:15 then go matthew's house.
but i was late.
hm... reached matt's house at about 20:00 =X
hahah... there were steve, lex and qihui too...
haha.. we had fun lorx...
ate pizza, played jing ku mi ma, played blackjack, sang songs..
hahaha... fun.
i think it would have been better if the other 2 can make it too?
i dont know...
well, maybe it would be.
*shrugs*
stupid steve... won about $22 lorx..
all of us lost,
and linda lost the most.. haha
reached home at around midnight...
kaoz.. ALMOST got into trouble... haha..
lalala. yey..!!
planning some excuse again..
think it'll be chalet again lahx...
so that i can go night cycling with the same ppl and more of them on sat night...
and yesh..
MAJOR GATHERING AT AIWEI'S HOUSE ON SUN!!!
i'll be really looking forward to that!!!!!
hahaha..
when i say.. MAJOR...
it means.. all my sec 2 classmates... some of my sec 4 clasmates..
her own classmates...
just basically EVERYONE that we know lahx! kaox.
it's gonna be real crowded..
there'll at least be around...
hm... 40??
woo hoo!! yeyeyeye!!!
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Monday, January 26, 2004
criterion hotel
20th jan 04, 22:49pm
thoughts just kept running through my head, so i figured it's better if i just write them down.
it feels good to be away from home for a while, away from 'my world' and enter unfamiliar territory. when i stepped out of the plane, the first thing i did was to look at the stars, and see if the stars are still there =)
woke up at around 5+ in the morning, and the sun is already up. boo! hate getting up early =( went shopping since early morn and br.. the air was cold. even at noon, when the sun is so high up, the air is still cold. good weather though.. =)
it's so hard trying to buy souvenirs back. kaoz.. but if guys are free, i'll probably bring a whole plane full of them back to singapore and well, xuan, you can have you pick =P i'm sure you'll find someone that you like plus height is definitely not a problem. =) saw a couple of billabong shops and tried getting the t-shirts that zc wants, but i gave up. the sizes are weee too big. it's like some nightshirt to me lorz.. and i didnt see any nice slingbags too, but lots of bagpacks though.
first day here, and i guess i'm more or less done with the souvenirs. well, since mum is in a relatively good mood today and is willing to use her credit card, i figured i'd better get ost of the things and put it on her bill =P bought something for mr yong that is so me =) i did try to study for SAT, but caught myself stoning after just 3 pages. =X
hey hey! guess who i missed the most. wild guess please! and i really mean WILD! definitely not the one that eceryone expected me to miss.. lala.. believe it or not, i actually miss GIAM the most =) hahah... kaoz.. if she's gonna start bhb-ing, i'll just kick her asse.
hey people! especialy those that are working. interested for a trip together in june? i know giam is considering, maybe we can all go somewhere together? it doesnt matter where, as long as we are spending time together lahz... away fro home and enjoying ourselves. =) told mum about it and she actually gave her consent. oh my gosh! what happen?
for once, i am actually being honest about this. i do miss her a bit, i guess. though a lot of people had asked me before, but i've always sort of either evade the question or just choose to forget about it. think gav was the only one who know since we talked about it a few times and he's always telling me to just admit it. haha... dont see the point in doing so in the past, but i see no harm in just doing so now.. so ya.. afterall, everything is over =)
hm... love love love love australia! just that the thought of travelling with my mum is a bit sianz.. -_-" it definitely feels good to be back in perth, afterall, my first trip abroad was to perth.
a trip abroad is good. more time for me to think, to reconsider my options and plans, sort out my thoughts and feelings, recharged and ready to move on. not as worried for the friendship anymore, cos i think i really need to just trust him. =)
yupz... and i've also made a short list of reslutions for the year =)
1. be less paranoid more optimistic. but that doesnt mean that i'm entitled to being insensitive.
2. save money. there're too many things that i want and i want to get the satisfaction of buying it using the money i saved or earned.
3. take up a new language. master it. fluent.
4. be a nice belle. be less mean = be less jek ark. use more words instead of actions = less abusive to yien =P control my temper.
5. give the best that i can give to others, especially the people that matters a lot to me. be the 'best' friend that one can get.
hm.. the next one is ambitious, but well, it's worth a try.
6. control my laughter and the volume =P dont wanna scare ky again of have gav's hand cover my mouth cos my laughter is too horrendous. =X dont want giam to give me the 'sia-suay' look and yesh... maybe this will make everyone miss the laughter and appreciates it when they hear it? well, i HOPE =)
i miss the old belle, that only has laughter and seems 'formidable' and 'unbeatable' =( i wanna get rid of the problematic belle that is growing more and more paranoid. i'm definitely going to be a belle that is recharged, ready, and full of zest for life, all prepared to face whatever that comes along the way, cross the obstacles and handle problems even more rationally.
i am who i am.
but you play a part,
in making the person that i am
today
for better or for worse.
thanx friends. =)
yesh... life will just get better..
no matter how sucky it is.
hm.. met up with jo, siyin and jingling today.
had fun in jo's house... super duper lots of fun! haha
ok.. and so, all 3 of us were late. was supposed to meet at 3 at jo's house, but well, as usual lahz...
hahaha... jingling and i reached first, and siyin joined us later. well, we update like nobody's business, played games and bitched around. hahaah... it was super fun lorx. trying to recall all the names of the people that used to be in our class, in our clique and stuff. ahahah =) and that blur ling... kns lorx.. actually sms-ed me yesterday and asked me if i was in the same class as her from pri 1 to 3. so diaoz...
hahaha... siyin and ling had probs recalling the names of the people lorx. and as jo and i started to name out more and more names, they only got confused lorx. ahhaha.. it's really funny. i can actually remember the people in their class lorz... and siyin and ling were like... "huh-ing" all the way. haahah..
then we started playing daidee after watching one disc of bruce almighty. werent really paying attention to the show lorz... cos we were to busy talking. hahaa.. then switched to watch SCV, and ya... you find 3 women trying to get the channel that they want... arguing and stuff... ahaha.. hm... 3 of them, not me, i was ok with anything lorx... afterall, there was nothing much going on anyway. ahha... ling wanna watched energy, then siyin wanna watched love storm, cos have zai zai and ken zhu... haha then jo wanna watched this other serial... hahah. but in the end, ling won lahz... cos she had the control in her hands. =P hahahaha... damn bai chi!
hm... it feels good to get together once in a while. realise that i've missed out a big part of their lives, with ling in nj, jo in ac and siyin away in aus. all of us lead different lives. we hardly cross each others' paths too. and yet, we really dont need to be with each other all the time. just meet up once in a while, and we'll still feel comfortable. sometimes, i think i'm really mean, afterall, jo is always the one that is trying to organise and stuff, and we're always so busy. hm.... but she never stops trying. amazing right? =) feels so glad to have her as a friend. she might be a bit spoilt, and sometimes insist on doing her way, but she's a great friend nonetheless. =)
Sunday, January 25, 2004
wish that i can say something to make others feel better...
but i'm so at a loss of words...
i dont think whatever i say will help...
just hope that with the passing of time..
things will just get better?
hm... was talking to jj and xuan just now...
interesting conversation...
didnt know why..
but suddenly just recall the song...
have you ever by brandy.
send the song to jj and i think he can sort of relate to it...
just like i used to..
some songs just kept replaying in my mind...
hahaah...
remember that i used to keep playing the same song
over and over again in my discman...
sometimes,
it's hurts so much that i'll just cry.
was listening to 93.3 just now...
and was telling jj that the song is damn sad...
just makes people teary...
hahaa.. plus today is a good day with good weather to cry oh... =P
hahaha.... and xuan thought tt e both of us were crying...
so duh... -_-"
haha...
as i told jj...
sometimes, you just dont have enough tears to cry anymore...
it's been quite some time since i last cried..
and even now,
i dont really know where to find e tears if i want to cry..
they just wont come anymore.
jj also agreed that we've cried enough...
hahaha.. yupz..
things might get you down,
hinder you in some way.
but it's all a matter of choice.
face it bravely,
live with it..
and no one can take your smilez away.
Friday, January 23, 2004
可能每个人都曾经觉得自己的生活很不好。
可能每个人都曾经埋怨所有的事情。
可能每个人都曾经把所有的过错都怪在别人身上。
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sometimes, there are so many things that we grumble about. there are so many things that we are not satisfied with. things can always be better. but no matter how good things are, humans can never be contented.
maybe it's best that things are not known. maybe it's just better to know lesser things. maybe it's best that i curbed my curiosity. maybe it's best to enstrange yourself. maybe, maybe, maybe.
i know they have problems too. but i didnt know it is that serious.
yesterday, i was really touched when pris and valli came to ask me if i was ok. they said that i looked lost so they were quite worried. they are friends that you dont need to talk to them all the time to share a common understanding i guess.
i admire valli's independence and courage. i admire issah for pursuing her dream. i admire pris for having so much love to give, even though she is not going through an easy time herself. they are simply with so much to give, and expect nothing in return just peace, and hopefully an understanding. among the 4, i am the youngest. and i also feel so young and innocent when i am with them.
they might not have as high a qualification as compared, but they have so much more important knowledge of surviving as compared.
suddenly, when times are down, i feel that i have more friends that i thought i have. prisc, carol and june. then fiona, vivien, tyng and hans. racheal and auntie jenny. and now, pris, valli and issah. i feel as though i'm gradually picking people up and including them in the group, so that we'll be more united, rather then just mere colleagues that has no ties attached, and nothing to talk about apart from work.
i have my own big mouths, freneyz, xiaoguas, pals, hades, and now... maybe, just maybe if we spent more time and have more faith and trust in each other, we just might be able to form a safari clique which is big enough and nice enough, to make everyone feel included and not outcast =) well, at least so far, it's a good start =)
Thursday, January 22, 2004
yey...
in this hotel called mercury now...
waiting for the coach to come...
so might as well... +)
hm... just wanna say...
happy birthday QQ!
another year older...
means even wiser??
hahaha.....
well, take care ya??
shall update more when i get back...
by the way..
there are so many shuai ges here...
that i dont really feel like going back le...=P
lalala....
cya... =)
Monday, January 19, 2004
yupz... think xuan and i got a part-time 'job' nowadays?
well, it's ok.
yesh... talked to songhui for 2 hours on the phone ytd..
was quite cool about things that he told me...
and yesh xuan..
dont worry abt letting him know tt i know...
cos, he told me abt it too.
believe it or not,
i woke up at around 7:45 in the morning...
kaoz...
i cannot remember when was the last time i woke up so early on a sunday.
well, since i told him that i'll try,
then i guess i cant complain.
that's the thing about staying nearby ba...
but i hope the next time that he asked me out for a walk with them...
will be at night,
and not EARLY MORNING.
almost pengz today.
yupz...
so glad that giam is ok now..
listen to her voice only... i know lorx..
the sweet sweet feeling is back again..
hahaa... kaoz..
suddenly, i dont know which giam do i prefer =X
talked a bit to gan ytd...
asked him about the usual stuff lahx...
and the progress too =P
hm.. well, seems like he's just gonna leave everything as it is..
hahah...
think he's too tired of it already.
well pal...
it's time to move on.
went to town with linda, limin and sok ytd...
was telling sok abt the sms that huiling of og 11 sent me..
kaoz...
it was super diaoz lorx..
haha..
apparenty, the og is planning to have an og outing.
so she invited me and sok along,
and asked us if we had any suggestions and whether we can make it.
told her that it's ok with us,
just tell us the date, time and place.
and she ended the 'conversation' with..
"ok. thanks..will let u know abt the plans..
but please dun let liyi know hor..
cos we dun plan to invite her.thanks."
diaoz...
got a shock.. and din really know what to reply..
hm... to think abt it now,
i think she really quite poor thing.
i mean afterall,
she's stiill their OGL lorx.. and yet...
-sighz-
Sunday, January 18, 2004
hm.. =(
dont even know how to put everything into words.
went to send nana off today with xuan, bee, xin and jia. when we reached the airport, there were quite a lot of people there sending her off too. her cadets, weiying and zixin they all, minghua and shiyun they all, her rj friends and us.
felt like crying then when i saw her, but if i start, i think a lot of people will just 'let go' too. tried so super hard to control it. -sighz- ok... and so i lied. told them that it was cos of yawning when it wasnt at all. na was telling me that... "aiyo... no need to cry one.." and cos i dont want to make everyone cry too, i just laugh it off and said that it's because of yawning.
when she finally stepped in, xin couldnt take it anymore. i know that weiying also teared. guess all of us are emotional creatures ah.. couldnt take it anymore, and just cried. though na said that it's just a few months, and she'll be back again at the end of the year, but we know that these few months is going to be longer than we expected.
yesh.. holding her to the promise that she'll bring back a surfer as her boyfriend. i hope it's not just one who surfs the net horx.. kaox.. but then, they'll make a perfect match ah? =X hm..
saw na's mum crying and i feel so sad. she can still recognise me even when i've not been to her house for about 1 and a half years. she has always been really nice to us whenever we went to her house. whether it's for mahjong session or just simply gossip and slack around, she always prepared lunch and snacks for us. well, i think we can just hope over once in a while, and yupz.. make sure that her mum is not lonely, afterall, if i'm not wrong, her bro might also be going to aus sometime soon to continue his studies.
cabbage head!
i miss you so much...
Thursday, January 15, 2004
was into thinking mood for a while, and decided to write something. for fun, for good times sake.
lots of names kept popping up in my head. yupz... faces, smiles, the happy times.. =) there were of course tears, and misunderstanding, arguments too.
2 years of college life. ups and downs. there were good and bad. know some very interesting people and i enjoyed their company. sok, the one who need to keep 'slapping' me awake. met hanini, and she's one lamer that can definitely matched with our loo loo. =) get to know melia and ming, one who phrase things in a funny and the other forever hubbing... =P know ah teo... blur but as nice as always.. addy, forever caring.. and full of diet plans =) juice, some bad times, but still, happy =) rachel and shuyi, not so close... but fun. joseph, matt, safian, imran and bah... funny as ever. jokers. wendy.. our dearest mei nu =) siti, small pinkish girl.. sweet. izzy, though like strangers now, but still, we had memorable times too.
later part of last yr. 5 xiao guas. gav, closest to me. the one i confide in the most. ky, worried about him the most. jem, similar, yet different. swings, but will be ok. weide, zaikia.. too quiet at times, and i still think you are a hao ren. edward, distant, but at least, can communicate. soennam, blur,lag. often left his brain at home =X jasper, str.forward. fun nonetheless. sq, cynical and comical. i have ry still. got closer, got better. thanx. gr, a romantic. gives you goosebumps. =P
through sok. linda, by chance? fate? haha. limin, there are flaws, but she's nice. gan, good pal. miss him. shiyang, nice friend. bitching partner. pris, little princess. protective. yanjie, goosebumps. funny.
went through 2 years without the constant company of the css peepz. but we had gatherings regularly, chalet annually. announcements and updates. we had misunderstandings, quarrels, differences, but it just brought us even closer. sometimes, i really have to thank the person who sort of 'invented' handphones. cos it's what we need to keep in touch. a sms can just touch the heart. it comprises of words, simple as it might be, but more then it seems. big mouths, love them! brothers, assurance that i can always get.
ups and downs. rollercoaster ride. as though i would never get tired of it. the first time it went down, you find it so difficult to climb up. the second time, and it's getting better. and as it happens, you'll just get immuned and you'll just get tougher. find myself climbing up faster then i expected. giam said i'm always soft-hearted. but i dont think so. found myself getting immuned to lots of things. being more cynical, and maybe as gav said, a bit paranoid when some things goes wrong.
feel like a sponge, kept absorbing. and i like it this way. maybe when you keep absorbing others' problems, you'll just forget about your own, cos it no longer seems important anymore. realise this whenever my xiao guas arent happy or the peepz are feeling down.
think i suck at studies. cant remember a lot of things for geog. kept forgetting maths formulas. tried very hard to remember all my lit quotes. but when it comes to the things that people said, it'll forever be lock in my head. they might mean nothing to the person, or they didnt even realise the importance and the significance of it. but to me, it means a lot. too much in fact. gav said some of the best things i've heard. xuan gave the best 'lecture'. sok gave the hardest 'slap'. ky said something that he didnt realise the significance, but i caught it. zhong ci, innocent as the question might be, but still, =) giam, the one sentence that i'll always remember. qiuqun, who shared my joys and sorrows, who cried together with me when i was down. song, who is always there to listen and gave the encouragement.
as i wish upon the star,
i know what i want.
i know what i'm saying.
dont take away all the obstacles,
dont just give me the easy way.
i want to cross the obstacles,
get dirty and hurt,
climb up again,
be tougher,
and move on.
dont take away my blessings,
dont leave me with nothing.
you know they mean a lot to me,
and you know who are the ones that matters.
you know who are the ones that have impacts on me,
and you know who are the ones that i hold closest to me.
and as i wish upon the star,
i wish for nothing more,
then the ones that you've already given to me.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
you know that i'm always just a phonecall away,
not too far to reach,
but not too near to be seen. =)
no matter how down i might be feeling,
how dejected i may be,
how tired i may sound,
how rough life is,
how busy i may be,
i'll still be here,
listening to you,
talking to you.
we've been through this once,
similar as it is,
there are differences too. =)
we'll go through this another time.
i know there might be more times to come,
but still,
we know we'll survive,
it's just a matter of time.
zhenyao told me that day he is glad that he has me,
at least there's one person around him that he can talk to.
kor says he is glad to have me,
cos i'm the only person that he knows how to confide in.
and now,
i'm so glad that i have you.
and all the others around.
for once,
he is of no help to me,
dont think he even has the time to listen.
well,
things will get better,
it will pass.
and just have to believe that what sok and sue said is right. =)
lalala...
as life goes on....
Monday, January 12, 2004
standing at the start of 2 separate paths,
wondering which way to go.
and unknowingly,
you started walking in one direction.
now you know that it's the wrong path,
you are trying to find the shortest way back,
only to realise that the only way back,
is the way that you just walked.
now that the path is chosen for you,
dropped everything and make a run for it.
cos it might seems long,
it'll be even longer if you just walk.
run for it, and you might get there faster.
no obstructions nor obstacles in front of you,
just dash for the finishing line.
what lies ahead,
might be better then you expect.
afterall, one wont die from setbacks,
but if one choose to remain in the same place,
then well,
one'll have to bear the consequences of it.
sian... feeling so bored...
didnt want to update this at first..
but well...
feel like going back to co all of a sudden...
haix...
and ask eddie about things...
and yesh...
qq, no need to guess...
ask eddie...
is of cos ask all sorts of things...
especially hm... =)
both of us know lahx...
plus song song.. haha...
dont know,
felt like asking him to tell me everything...
and all that i need to know and supposed to know.
but sometimes, it's just better not knowing right?
think eddie was glad that one of his prediction didnt come true?
or at least, he sort of 'warned' me about it...
and things were ok after that.
now i feel like an idiot..
those wu shi bu deng san bao dian kind..
sianx..
but since my dearest cousin is back now...
if i ask eddie...
eddie sure tell him one...
sianx...
think i should go back ah...
cos i promised them to...
then maybe can jio jx to go too..
long time never see him liaox...
lalala...
trying to get rid of everything and start afresh...
yupz..
hm... and dear dear mr X sms-ed me the other day...
*grinz*
was quite happy actually...
but then, he wasnt really happy lahx...
so yupz..
still trying to find another time to talk to him..
to think about it, time passed really fast leyz... i was sec 1 when i know him leyz.. hahah.. and yesh... crazy me, stupid days... haha! bleah! even dragged dear shihan with me... simply crazy about him manx.. but i didnt really talk to him at all lorx... it's only until he graduated then we became close. hm.. yupz... by the way.. i didnt get to say this to mu zhu that time.. but yesh... thankx a lot, mu zhu... for being there to console me when yesh.. i finally got them together. to think about it now, it's so stupid. but still, yupz... cried in the gallery if my memory serves me right. during morning assembly somemore lorx... sianx... well, thanx mu zhu. =)
3 years passed and they are still together... woo hoo! not bad eh... but then now like that, i also wonder what he's going to do since this problem has been there for quite long. haha... i wonder if dear shianz will be pai seh if i reminded her how she get to know of my dear kor's address. haha... and by the way, think jason's going into ns soon... so ya... shianz, no need to scare liaox horx..
*yawnz* tired... but cant get to sleep... sianx... now i wish there is someone that i can talk to... but too bad, i'll just talk to the mirror...
lalala... yupz qq... =)
hm... sorry for making you cry ah..
hm... guess both of us are too similar le.. =)
i can get what you mean,
and i know you get what i mean.. haha
no need to worry one lorx..
haha..
cos i'm ok..
really =)
well, you take care ya..
now, i've other things to distract me ah...
plus i feel like knowing more about the
juniors that i've just known.
hahahaha.. yupz!
well, tell you something another time.. =)
heheh!
but well, i think sooner or later..
more or less..
the rest will also start to suspect here and there..
but still..
HECK! bleah! =P
lalal... dearest celest...
erm... be sure and move on..
you hold the key,
and you know it. =)
dearest xuan...
i think the age is getting near lahx...
start saving up horx..
then we can go on our 'bio-ing' tour.. =)
and yesh... pls tell me when you are free..
then i can arrange a day out with na-na...
and yesh... DEAREST SHIANZ!!!
u finally got urself a phone!!!
kaox!!!
FINALLY!
then next time... i dont need to threaten to murder u le!
hahaha...
cya soon.. =)
Sunday, January 04, 2004
yesh...
think i'm destinied to be a maid of others lorx...
kns...
wanted to go home and sleep yesterday..
but end up walking back to school instead...
cos my dad is at home and AWAKE,
so i dont wanna go home and be his maid lorx!
sianx...
walked back to wait for the usual people instead...
was playing the piano when xuan called...
so decided to meet up with her lorx...
hahah...
yupz!
that stupid woman horx!!
meet up only... complain and complain lorx...
not only about the lecture that mdm aishah gave the peerleaders in the morn..
but also the poor guy whose noodles has been cursed... haha! =X
oopS! think she's gonna slaughter me again!!
wah liew... i'm like her maid lorx
ws in popular with her for about 45 minutes..
and i carried all the files and stuffs for her lorx.
why?!
cos i'm in a better mood then her..
and so, i've to be the maid lorx..
kaox... what kind of logic manx!
haha..
but it's ok lahx...
once in a blue moon..
i'm still ok.
went to coffee bean and talked lahx...
that crazy woman is having 3 jobs at once lorx!!!!!!
kaox...
she's totally and completely crazy lorx!
think she superman ah?!!!
no need to rest ah?!
kaox...
just to keep herself busy and get her mind off things...
3 JOBS?!!!
aRgH!!!
but she'll get lots of money on payday lahx...
hm... aiya..
unlike me...
still slacking around..
ok... i'll go get a job after the opening ceremony..
or not,
i'll just get a part time one first..
yesh... i'm going to work..
and HECK my parents!
cannot bear to stay at home and look at their face manx!
kaox!
-sighz-
-sianz-
hm... sianx...
days are getting boring...
but well...
who cares?!
nobody does anyway.
hey xuan!
you are not e only one in a rotten mood le...
haha...
so maybe the next time we meet up...
you'll be carrying my things??
i'll make sure i bring a lot of things..
and let you carry...!!
standing at the start of 2 separate paths.
wondering which way to go.
and unknowingly,
you started walking in one direction.
now you know that it's the wrong path,
you are trying to find the shortest way back,
only to realise that the only way back,
is the way that you just walked.
lalalaa.....
hey celest..
yesh... we're gonna meet up sometime soon horx!
i feel so NOT updated now lorx...
it's like something is going on....
and i dont know anything... *fishy*
kns!!!
you know what i mean horx!!!!
your blog horx...
showered with honey and i think...
sugar is free lorx!
so now what?!
nowadays taking sugar-free sweets har?!
afterall, i dont think you need it lahx!
Friday, January 02, 2004
wow!
just when you think that the bad times are over...
for example,
the lousy 2003...
the first day of 2004 sucks too!
what a great way to begin a new year...
wow!
