Monday, August 03, 2015
Khit theung mak.
Kow jai Mai?
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
A sudden disinterest in the things around me.
Falling sick makes me ansty.
Not sure of the emotions going through me.
No reason no why no who no what no how.
It's so easy to blurt things out,
And yet over the years I've learnt to keep more to myself and rely less on others.
The fear of not being able to handle confessions when I say them,
Or how to face the confessions from me,
Keeps everything in check.
Perhaps that's why I've always love Phill and Leo,
Maybe cos' they are so far away that my secrets are indeed safe with them.
It's just like how Phill shares his steamy episodes with me,
Cos he knows that I'm too far away to tell anyone about it.
No fear of being exposed.
There are things that you'll keep from your bestie,
Not even talk about it.
Because they know you well enough to know that it's not as simple as you wanna make it sound..
That if it was that simple and doesn't really mean something,
It wouldn't even be worth mentioning and wasting precious time talking about it to your bestie.
There are so few that I confide in,
And I always choose different people to confide about different things.
It's as if I wear different masks all the time,
Cos there'll always be that one side of me that they won't know.
That's why bestie always say I always like to let people think that I'm very tough and independent,
When all I want is to lean on someone.
If I love you, I'll always love you.
So I hope I don't like you to begin with,
Cos even though my love is bountiful,
It's not meant for you if you don't know how to appreciate.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Down down down.
Just feeling down.
Sigh.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Back to being good friends and enjoying the companionship of Jean-Claude and Anita Blake with their vamps and shapeshifters....
I cant really describe how I feel or why I feel this way... But I'm envious of Anita.
The people in her life..
The things she do...
The decisions she made..
The choices she made..
And a lot of other things...
Oh manz... I forgot all the literary terms that I've learnt. Shucks!
She's like the dark side of us.
That side of us that tries to hide from others.
But she's just someone who chose to be who she is,
Embrace the part of her that is different from others,
Be brave in a hopeless situation.
Been reading too many supernatural stories...
As usual, the Anita Blake series is my absolute favourite!
Give me Jean-Claude anytime, I'll take Acheron too! Haha
Jean-Claude from the Anita Blake series and Acheron from the Dark-Hunter series...... Love them!
Sunday, June 03, 2012
其時，最近還真的過的不是太開心。
雖然我知道沒有必要為了一些小人而煩，
可是我終究還是不能控制自己的情緒。
有些人太可惡又可悲！
作的說的都太過分了。
那就是她對待周遭人的態度。
起初，剛認識的時候，還不曉得，
但久了以後，
就知道甚麼都是假的。
超虛偽。
小人當道，我還是離得遠遠的。
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Haven't been aunt agony for a looooooong time.
It's very tiring and I might grumble here and there...
But I dont really mind if I can help.
Anyway... Everything aside.
"I kept thinking about you lately.
Trying to figure out something that I don't quite understand.
I have a new understanding of you though,
But I don't like how I feel about it.
Oh well, I guess it takes some time to get used to.
I just wanna say...
L. H. "
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
很多時候，我都不開心。
以前的發洩方式，是抨擊任何一個惹到我的人。
可是現在長大了，
不知不覺學會了甚麼不開心的事都往肚子里吞。
甚麼都要忍，甚麼都要撇。
甚麼都不能說。
甚麼都靠自己。
因為原本最親的人都不會諒解。
只會用他們自己所謂的對與錯來下定論。
Monday, May 21, 2012
The simple things that I like...
Food!!!
Love lok lok!!! Yay!
Labels: Lok lok
felt like saying nothing.
so many avenues to rant,
but no nice platforms to vent.
i've been thinking about it recently,
thinking too often nowadays.
i kept wondering,
and yet i dont want to be wondering.
it's not what i want...
not what i should want,
but i cant shake off that feeling.
they are confused,
i think i'm just as confused.
over the years,
i've learnt to put on a facade and simply pretend when i feel defensive.
i've learn to keep my silence and not air my thoughts and feelings,
because not putting them into words means they arent real.
at least not real enough to have shape or evidence or anything.
i think sometimes i wanna avoid facing what i dont wanna face...
which is why i skip a meet-up or two..
because the closest people can always tell how i feel...
just by the words i say...
so tricky and so easy....
but yet,
there are some things that i dont really wanna talk about.
not now, not ever.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
havent blog for a long time... starting to lose touch. oh manz~
so many things happened and never happen for the pass 2 months or so... dont really know how to describe it.. but in short, i'm still looking for a way to change certain aspects of life. i guess as you aged, you simply want some changed in life to make things more meaningful.
i've to admit that i've been kinda leading a decadent life recently. perhaps, i was just sick of being stuck in the same situation over and over again that i felt that sometimes, i'm just slowly losing grip of reality and starting to "slip away" unknowingly...
i know i can be stronger then this.. but it's so hard when you struggle alone and you dont really wanna tell anyone about it.
met quite a couple of new people and extremely young people recently. it's quite fun to simply think at a very innocent level... seriously, responsibility sucks.
after going through the period of tw, jpop... then hk.. then kpop... and now thai lakorns.. and djs n what have you... i think even though i've added another 'genre' in my 'collection', but i'm glad that i'm slowly getting away from kpop. afterall, it's kinda like the biggest 'evil' among all.
sometimes, i think when he/she is not exactly your most preferred, you dont expect anything, and yet, you 'receive' the most from them. it's just very innocent comments and responses, but yet, it makes my entire day a lot better at times... because he's really genuine and funny.
in any case... i just want this extremely tiring period to be over... and get on with life...~
Saturday, January 07, 2012
I think the new tumblr is not working the way I want it to be. The new tumblr seems to have become more of an outlet to Spazz... So I guess I'm gonna continue using blogger instead.. It feels more real...
Anyway, I'm still on my way to a wedding dinner whose invitation wrote starting at 7pm, but as usual, the table of us are only making our way there... Sigh...
Am excited to see familiar faces that I haven't seen for a long time... Wheeee!
Friday, December 30, 2011
It's almost the end of 2011 - a year of stress and helplessness at times. I dont know what's installed for me in 2012, but I believe that it'll be better then these!
I want it to be different, and so I will it to be!
Bought a new organiser for a brand new year! 😊
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Just came back from the etonhouse camp in the zoo! The kids are really cute even though they are damn rowdy! Hahaah.. But generally really good kids!
Miyo Ai Kelly Olive Stephanie Sophie Rachana Thomas Peter Kei Ryosuke Seungwoo Harry Marco Paulo Jose Aryan Luke Damien Hamza and 2 others that I can't really remember at the moment..
But the Nancy group has really cute kids as well.. Hahah.. And of course the non-stop group that hangs out with Thomas. Jo Nina Axel William..
I really like Axel.. Cos he's really smart and nice and cute! And his mum came for the camp as a parent volunteer and she's really really nice! Kinda admire the way she plans for the kids and family... Frankly speaking, I don't think a lot of women can do that nowadays..
Oh well.... Sleepy.. Shall go zzzzzx..
Monday, October 17, 2011
I guess now that they have a blogger app for iPhone.. I guess I can blog more often! As for now... I'm kept awake by the annoying cramps... Sigh...
This is definitely one of the worst ever....
Monday, August 29, 2011
had a rather weird dream last night.
something that i havent dreamt of for a really long time.
i dont understand why did i suddenly dreamt of you.
maybe it was something that i had suppressed for a really long time.
everything seems so surreal...
so familiar..
as if nothing has changed.
there were the usual places that we used to hang out..
and the things that we talked about..
you definitely would not discussed such serious stuffs with me in reality.
just not possible, at least, not now.
the only possible explanation that i can give for dreaming about you...
is that....
i miss you.
